Elysian

Fucking hell

2012-02-01T00:05:00.000+08:00

Can people stop thinking I'm some fucking god who's good at everything.

I'm fucking human, and you have no right in scoring badly.

I'm just doing my best.

And you are just making fucking excuses.

Please, fuck off.

32 years old

2012-01-26T17:44:00.002+08:00

Hmm, wonder if she ever wanted to get married?

It's sad if her position hindered the proposition.

The community is rather supportive, or at least from what I see of it.

If you don't like the song, just leave the place.

An artist doesn't owe anyone anything.

M.Nana has gone through so many phases.

Truth be told I only started listening to ballads/slow rock because of her first album. It was slow, like really slow. Then she suddenly progressed into poppy happy music, which was a far cry from the original music.

I don't know how it got her famous arhh. Then brilliance came in hybrid universe! I think Element Gardens did something. And the IE8 came and woah, big change into techno-isque music. With the latest Synchrogazer, I really am curious where she would go next.

Happy Belated 32nd years old!

I remember lolling at all the Engrish.

I think it was boarding school where I started downloading her music, cos I was seriously bored.

Thanks boarding school.

Thanks boredom.

Brilliant Star was probably the only track which caught my attention, but I was like what the hell man, let's download more albums.

And suddenly it went on to singles.

While the quality is bad, I guess some emotion got to me?

Then in IE8, we had weird stuff like:

Who cares man! Except for the ENGRISH!

Rarr, but that aside, I hope she finds something that she likes.

She said that she would be changing her music style, and I guess IE8 represented everything.

Synchrogazer wasn't a big hit with me, but its still in my library? Weird huh.

I guess I'll end stuff of with a live performance.

Going through my iTunes now, and the first song that was picked was Strobe cinema lol, it doesn't have a live performance yet. On to itunes! そよ風に吹かれて… lol

Rarr, "don't be long" which only exists in the allfortest version.

It makes her voice sound very weird imo.

M.Nana and her phases.

Sing forever.

CNY

2012-01-20T20:33:00.002+08:00

I'm kinda desperate, life's changing isn't it.

Why you so noob, run so slow. Fucking hate this.

The class will forever remain rock-bottom in your eyes. You clearly do not understand sociology in your utopia, tinted by glasses of anger and arrogance.

You still do not understand the definition of a friend.

And you have clearly given up.

Tahanners are integrating into my family tree.

Friends are the family that we choose right?

While there may be secrets between family members, I still appreciate the warmth when I am with you all.

I'm not gay Solomon :)

I'm pissed, but I'm happy at the same time.

Happy for the times with my friends, angry because I'm becoming nonchalant to the outside world.

Is it wrong to ignore those who are drowning? Is it worth saving people who are not your friends? Would they actually become friends if you save them? Zachary, Solomon, Small Girl help? SOS?

SymphoGet

2012-01-17T18:49:00.002+08:00

Oh you give love a bad name~
Nothing happening, so no updates.
Not Bad yar

Happy Christmas

2011-12-24T22:51:00.002+08:00

"Eh what issit arh, happy christmas? I know its Happy New Year..."
Been 8 years since then.

My childhood was spent insignificantly, making little to no impact to my life. Perhaps the only benefit was my entering of Hwa Chong.
Need to live life to the best now yea?
Believe it or not, manga really made a big impact.
I don't regret.

Nananana

2011-12-21T20:09:00.000+08:00

Its been around 3 years of fandom now. I deserve a prize.

Always ask I guess, I won't grow up so demanding of the people around me.

Ahah

2011-12-14T21:05:00.001+08:00

My thoughts are dying.

Homework is piling.

Something is wrong.

Mediocre

2011-11-25T20:54:00.002+08:00

I was doing some overdue filing today, need to get pumped up and all y'know.

I came across my results, I kind of understood how my sister felt.

Sometimes, SMTP really seems to be an enticing option.

But then what's done is done. Might as well anticipate the future.

Today I really wanted to invest in a deuter, but I realised that my sister/brother, either one actually bought one long long ago. So I might as well make the best of it.

ONE OF MY CARABINERS IS MISSING! ZACHARY, SOLOMON, YINGYUE, IS IT WITH YOU!?

That aside, I coincidentally bumped into Solomon today. The world is small.

Somehow bought a jacket. 196 flew away just like that. Rarr.

Gintama!

I want time to complete you.

Realised I haven't been updating my anime list. Not that I have much to update. Kamen Rider and RatMan? Gahh, time is killing me.

Training tomorrow! Really pumped up for no reason.

Yesterday I really tried to console my sister.

I mean, just because someone scores higher than you doesn't automatically indicate that they are of higher calibre. I mean, while I don't really believe that everyone is equally smart (The world is unfair), but then you are a talented individual, probably more talented than Zhong Hong and I. I just didn't have the balls to say it.

I really hope that one day you would get to see this, given that all my secrets are being revealed to you like a leaky faucet.

Ha, but grow up strong and beautiful yar. Don't become a dick like me.

Hmm, if I really have tumour, I would certainly cry till my death.

Let's hope its just another fat blob.

But then,

Everything would turn out fine yea?

P.S. YingYue, I'm not a lolicon.

._.

PSLE

2011-11-24T22:17:00.005+08:00

You put up a front.

But the fragile facade shatters. It's better as pieces than whole.

Your father tells you that it was what he expected.

If I were in your position now, I would really be pissed and sad.

He doesn't know your sadness. The effort you put in didn't yield the expected results. It's sad.

Hard work doesn't pay off. I said this before.

Your mother is agitated by your father's comments. She succumbs to the pressure and conveys your father's message to you. Fucked up chaos ensues, thank god I stepped in.

The hell with this shit.

I mean 268 is good and all. However compared to your expectations, it certainly fell short as underwhelming. I'm sorry I played a part in boosting your expectations. It came from pride as a brother, you probably won't understand, but it doesn't matter.

I'm proud as your brother, that you actually meet with such a "failure". Everyone faces crap in some point of their life. But it ultimately matters if you can pull through. Whether you become emaciated through the process, or whether you emerge stronger, it would really be up to you.

I'm really glad you asked for my opinion. But your fucking failure of a brother couldn't come up with a better answer than a few short sentences. I'm sorry.

I want to try to be a better brother. But it won't come so soon.

Please smile again.

I'll forget this post soon

2011-11-20T21:43:00.001+08:00

I need to keep my distance.

This is getting fucked up.

I didn't intend it to be that way.

People'll feel the difference.

You'll feel it too.

He'll feel better.

I will too.

Back to the desk

2011-11-20T15:06:00.002+08:00

Classic.

Looking forward to stuff.

Back to the desk.

Back to the books.

Cliques

2011-11-19T23:41:00.003+08:00

People come from different backgrounds.

Some say the cliques are present.

I'm not involved.

But I want to see it.

I want to see the social strata, the hate, the despair, the leer, the jeers.

I want to be the one to see it.

Let's not be too quick to jump to conclusions.

Understand the people around you.

We are humans after all.

Jaded feelings

2011-11-18T23:08:00.003+08:00

The world is fucked up.

Being in the in crowd doesn't necessarily confer you the title of socially adept.

Socially adept people might simply be good in finding a common scapegoat.

Stick close to your friends, they'll pull you through.

They'll give you the criticism and stop with the superficial bullshit.

Friends, they are people who are willing to listen to you.

Friends, they are people who are candid with you.

I pity you, but your growth would ultimately pull you through.

Your friends are here, don't forget that yea.

Training tomorrow.

Looking forward.

They better not be late.

Grateful

2011-11-14T21:12:00.003+08:00

I'm grateful for everything that happened today.

Lips sealed, words seared into my mind. You have my word.

I stumbled upon the scene with 500 days of summer. It was a sad movie.

Then again, what you're doing now is probably the safest route. You have my support.

Whilst things might not grow well, I guess cherish and anticipate the future.

We're still kids. Kids with ambitions, dreams, wants. We make mistakes, but we automatically stand back up. It's instinct. Let's preserve and treasure this instinct.

Ever changing. Dynamic. Shifting. Dying out. Sparks.

Life changes. Environment changes. People come. People go.

Even if the proverbial glass is half empty. Let's make sure that our mind stays full. Memories fade. Words do not. Write it out. Talk about it. The natural order of the world would bring it back when the time comes. Have faith.

Parents are the best of people. Parents aren't role models. They have their flaws. They make mistakes. However, I believe that somewhere deep down, parents would love their child, and would only want the best for them. Like us, they crack under stress and pressure. Sometimes, the cracks surface. We fall into the cracks, and we stop seeing the bigger landscape. Remember all the happy times. Support them. Maybe, your bonds would run deeper.

Keep them shining. Your dreams.

I really respect you, and I hope I would earn yours.

You are Human after all.

I appreciate it. Thanks.

Updated Blogskin

2011-11-13T17:01:00.001+08:00

Condoned y blog just now to make some changes to the blog skin.

Re-opened now, as you obviously can see.

Just tired

2011-11-10T23:45:00.003+08:00

Legs are sore.

Eyes are droopy.

Arms are perfectly fine though.

Thighs still burning.

Spirits high.

Take a walk

2011-11-09T23:32:00.004+08:00

The PArAnoiD AnDrOId takes a walk down memory lane.

Meet a girl who you only helped. You did not get caught.

After half a year.

She's slipping through walls. The frequency ticked.

Slippery as sound, it missed.

Or maybe it was the other way around.

Though it was accidental on both sides I'm sure.

She's slipping through walls. The frequency ticked.

Slippery as sound, blame globalisation. Captured.

Hint Zachary, hints are scattered all over the place.

Hi Solomon, say hi back.

_____ Card Virus

2011-11-08T21:41:00.001+08:00

Holy crap.
I didn't see this coming.

Let's just make do with it.

Nothing wrong right?

I'm a paranoid android.

PDS

2011-11-03T19:02:00.002+08:00

I'm proud to belong to this part.

HCINCC, the best thing that happened in my Secondary School life.

>) YAYBALLS.

I mean, for those of you all that don't really know why my FB profile pic is that picture, I'll just say that I really feel proud to have come from my part. In Primary School, I was somewhat happy. I led a pretty innocent life, shielded from a lot of events due to my family background (I'm not blaming my family, it's kind of inevitable given my mom's nature). Then in Secondary School, magic happened. Well, I actually joined NCC because losers like me don't want to play sports but want to exercise. And, because my brother was from NCC. I guess NCC helped me open my eyes a lot.

It made me umm, mentally retarded

It made me appreciate music and stand up for music I liked lol

It made me understand how to deal with bipolar bitches ._.

It made me learn how to deal with weird people.

It showed me the importance of effort.

It made me understand that while effort was important, luck was essential.

It made me understand that every time you fail, many have failed too, and that you don't deserve the pity.

It made me understand that friends are actually the people you argue with the most, but for some reason you keep forgiving them.

It made me understand that real friends would actually criticise you straight in the face.

It showed me how to deal with white gangsters lol.

It made me learn that in life, things don't always go your way, but you just have to move forward.

It showed me that even if you never thought you were close to someone, getting shouted at, running together, KIDed together, laughing together, ponning class to polish boots together, climbing through the window to get into lock room to stone/sleep/play com, stoning in lock/log room together, bitching about why we always take 1 hour to pack our stuff before we actually go KAP/ stoning at poolside and getting scammed (and sometimes choking on a fishbone right TY)/ going through stupid hellish camps together, catching people sleep during solonite, having to run 2.4 at 3:30 in the morning, having your rifle stolen and having your hopes get destroyed, that someone becomes a person you would have no problem stoning around with.

It showed me that a true friend is someone who you can sit next to and not talk, yet not feel awkward.

It showed me that everything was worth the wait.

HCINCC, proud to be.

Still in the dark

2011-10-29T21:33:00.002+08:00

Was it really unwise to say it in front of the opposite sex?

I personally do not think so. It's part of the human body, regardless of sex, I really don't see what's so "disgusting" or "filthy" about the topic. It was all in the name of science, and I do not believe the context the wrong. I need to be enlightened, though this request would probably be another shout in the dark.

I need to grow, and my judgments are still poor and lacking.

So please, if you have something against it, raise it up. You won't harm anyone, especially me. I've been stabbed too many a time. Stabbing me won't kill me no more.

For my pride has already died. Fulfillment has become the main source of survival.

My personal policy is that if you truly care and feel, you would voice it out. Regardless of the response, you did your best. And this would happen even if you lose a friend. Just goes to show that some people stubbornly believe they are right, similar to how I feel that my opinions are right. But rather I am inclined to feel that they are right. For they are ultimately opinionated, no matter how much I try to counter-balance them. I'm confused, and I'm desperately groping the dark.

Mourn

2011-10-27T23:44:00.002+08:00

Because it's time to Sing for the Moment.

I'm thankful, that they are so accepting. I'm a defiant asshole, I'm sorry, and I won't come up with any stupid excuse. I'm still immature, and I'm not ready to live alone. Mentally unsound, I'm a ticking bomb.

I might seem calm and composed on the outside, but what's inside is the opposite of nirvana. It's a fucking tornado, ripping every heartbeat that I'm taking. It's tiring to force each pulse, each action potential, but I don't want them to worry for me. The best I can do is to postpone the satisfaction and love, I can wait. I'm used to it.

But, I still yearn for it, and I'm glad you still shower me with emotion. It's an earthquake, but you help me fly.

Thanks mom, I really owe you one.

No make it infinite, I can't express how thankful I am.

Sorry that you probably would not read it, I felt that I needed to express it, lest I forget the feeling.

I am loved. I'm thankful.

I stretch my hand out

2011-10-23T23:45:00.003+08:00

I believe that I finally calmed down, and that I am starting to perceive you as a friend.

I hope everything goes well.

I do not want to see two friends fall into despair.

Moving forward is the best way, just do it.

少年

2011-10-18T02:32:00.002+08:00

An everyday life in itself isn't bad

But when you realise you've been suppressing your own desires

and people tell you've become more subdued these days it's dangerous

Don't you have any aspirations?

I'm sorry to my teachers.

I'm sorry to my parents.

I'm sorry to myself.

And even though I know I have done my best in the circumstances, it is still unacceptable.

Call me a perfectionist, but I didn't see the results I anticipated.

It was ultimately a culmination. But I don't regret the process.

While the results weren't satisfactory, I will continue moving on.

I might not reach my goals.

But if I don't move, I won't even stand a chance.

So I shall keep moving forward.

Surely everyone is dyed with brilliant colours
I want you to smile at me sometimes to show that you have never forgotten

(UU

2011-10-15T12:06:00.002+08:00

I guess sometimes, the cracks surface quite readily.

I understand that everyone is different, and you have changed a lot. A lot for the better too.

However, sometimes it would be prudent to take a step back and look at the larger picture. It's kind of scary, if you just brush it off. It is a long and arduous journey, let's patch up the cracks now. Emerge stronger.

Post-Promo Premonition

2011-10-12T23:20:00.002+08:00

I demand you to watch, whoever you are.

Promos are over, and this is an obligatory post. Cough. Sneeze. Fart.

Sorry, I just don't know what to write, because I haven't really received any of my subject papers yet. I have a bad good feeling about my papers.

Many haploids are turning Diploids, and many triploids are remaining so. Quite funny, considering that I'm a mere organelle, observing the spindle fibres unfold the stupid future. I've been using the word stupid a lot recently. I guess it's PW's fault. !@#$%^&*() Nah, PW is fun. lol

Well, the current economic climate is rather grey. I really hope we won't fall into another global recession. With the US down, I personally feel that China is still not experienced enough to succeed, and that the USA just cannot relinquish its position while leaving such a big mess. Step your game up son. Arh, sorry.

Moving on, I guess Music really depends on the mood. Also, I really want to believe that no one flavour can satisfy one's taste buds. If you think that listening to one genre all day long is enough, I would like to think that you're wrong. >( I'm talking about my sister lol. Nonetheless, she's still young, and her ears would lead the way. I think I'm becoming like my mom, just that instead of worrying about her results, I worry too much about her social life. Not saying that my brother wasn't a good example to us, but I just feel that he only let himself be himself after he got into army. My family really molded me into a person which I didn't feel comfortable being. It just wasn't me. And while I suffer from certain consequences of such an upbringing, I don't want my sister to experience the same. Also for that matter, I guess that's why I am so "loyal" (I'm no lapdog) to NCC; the retarded people within my retarded part has truly broken that thick carapace. D'10 less than 3 :)

Japanese vids are awesome. Go watch the video if you haven't. If you don't laugh, then it means you're doing PW!

Everything. Yesterday, I woke up sucking a lemon. I just hope Everything. Would be In its right Place. In its Right Place.

What the fuck

2011-09-02T14:55:00.002+08:00

It's stupid when people just shoot random accusations at you only to apologise later.

I forgive, but I don't forget.

And I don't forgive easily.

Sometimes, people should take the initiative and not simply stand at the sidelines.

Just get the final verdict and carry on.

And for all you know, it might just burst your bubble.

Alas, some people should just take videos of themselves and see how much of a retard they actually are.

Hypocrites.

I really can't stand you.

Please people, I'm emotionally fine. It's just that thoughts just come bursting out.

Of course, if you feel a tinge of guilt, you can come ask me.

I might just lie to you. For that's who I am. I'm a fking asshole. Accept that, and you'll perhaps know me better as a person. Well, I doubt many people would read this anyway. Heh.

Invasion of Chaos

2011-08-17T19:24:00.004+08:00

Sinking ship, people started drowning.

The deck was hit. I cradled. Blushed.

It's started.

They started appearing in dreams.

Chase them out.

Someone tell me what it means.

Dreams

2011-08-08T01:38:00.003+08:00

Can they come true?

Inferiority Complex

2011-08-02T22:29:00.002+08:00

First: Dedication to Ying Yue

Hihi, money cannot buy everything. However, let's just say that money is necessity, because in a way it is the basis for obtaining one's necessities. Necessities here refer to the daily requirements to allow one to survive, for example a roof over one's head and enough energy bars and glucose. I mean, this should be rather self-explanatory. Without this necessities, one would probably live on the streets, lest you say that despite your 17 years of living in a comfortable environment have had no effect on you. However, I agree that from there on, whether or not truly satisfies you is up to the individual. Then again, humans can never be satisfied. Intrinsically, humans are build to be greedy creatures in my opinion. The gaping hole created from unsatisfied greed culminates to sadness. It is possible to temporarily satisfy this sadness, however it would be possible to create more sadness. Then again, without money, you would still crave for something, and that craving would transform into sadness. Also, who is to say that that sadness is of a "lower degree" than the former scenario where sadness stems from unsatisfied greed? Hence, while money would give rise to sadness, it is in my opinion that if you want to feel happy, you should have money, unless you are content with being a nomad.

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I am sorry if I have disappointed you with my poor performance. I would work harder. I myself am disappointed. For some reason, the shadow is looming.

Inferiority Complex once again.

Give me the power to escape. Please

Expectations X Discrepancy

2011-07-20T00:06:00.002+08:00

I'm really surprised at the lack of standards in our school.

Seriously, if you put in effort, you should yield results. The bare fact that you are in HC proves that you of certain calibre. It disgusts me how some people can get pleased with such poor grades, claiming things like "the paper is tough" or "I didn't have time". If other people can do it, why can't you?

I am in no means exceptionally smart.

Let's see. Perhaps people should start finishing tutorials in time, by their own effort, and actually bother taking time to think instead of producing shoddy sub-standard work. Perhaps people should consider revising before an exam and not burn the midnight oil. Perhaps people should actually feel remorse and seek improvement. Maybe they would be able to see some results.

It just sickens me how we are supposed to be the cream of the crop.

Nyan Nyan

2011-07-05T21:20:00.002+08:00

Finally Japanese clothes on a cover Nyan.

Red is the official colour now, maybe I'll change the crystal letter banner once the CD cover or the PV comes out. Nana.C 5 not anywhere near though. Why no Etsuraku Camellia making?! T.T

Finished I&I, because I have both ideas and issues with that piece of crap. Or not, it was helpful, so if you haven't done it, let your conscience massacre you yea?

Going to do Bio now.

Tomorrow is a very special day.

It was the day the greatest loser was born \(≧▽≦)/

BANZAI

2011-07-03T01:01:00.002+08:00

Blocks are finally over, and it has been a long time since I updated this with something.

It's been a while. Holidays were simply an excuse to load us students with additional responsibilities and worries to grow white hair. Exaggeration ttm yea, but holidays weren't exactly very relaxing. Tahan was seriously awesome with the god damn tornado and all the ridiculous crap. Still remember the 1.5 km trek through the branches and slippery rocks. Still remember the singing of Majulah Singapura at 8 am everyday. Remember asking Yan Rui to start some free radio service. Remember pushing the sides of the tent during the storm. Remember crossing my arms and climbing through the rocky slope. Remember lugging my harversack with all the rubbish compressed into a stinky ball of crap. Remember having to wake up shivering and prepping yourself before entering the cold air of the barren Gaydong. Remember having the final 1.5 hours of trek with the gloomy atmosphere on the way back to campsite on the 5th day. Remember the ineffable joy of reaching Wray's camp ahead of schedule. Remember the "This is a nice place... Because it's the camp site". Remember the random shouting when I felt very down for having sprained my leg while climbing up-slope and feeling thoroughly unmotivated after the river crossings. Remember talking about how shouting can imbue me with strength like some Super Saiyan and musing that my hair would somehow turn a golden yellow. Remember the scene where Yan Rui tries to sit behind me and Joshua at Reskit. Remember climbing through the fallen branch and avoiding the overhead branch only to walk straight into an overhead rock. Remember the discovery of a "mystery" while crossing the river with Solomon. Remember encouraging Joshua and realising how strong Joshua was for resisting the agony of his foot rot. Remembering the joy of reaching the camp site while every was in dregs. Remember the waterman emerging from the forest after the collect their water, hearing them complaining of the stupid mosquitoes attacking them during the process of collecting water. Remember waterman and Zachary going to collect water at Gaydong, getting lost in the process and all of us standing at the cliff trying to find them and trying to shout louder than the wind. Remember the sun shining down on our necks. Remember Yan Rui and I trying to do some lame kungfu poses. Remember leading to group and walking into a forest of thorns, with my neck's skin constantly being pulled. Remember the feeling of regret and despair for being lost and having to waste our team's time. Remember the joy of leading the team successfully. Remember "the rock with eyes... Oh shit, it's a giant frog". Remember zachary talking about finding a mansion and realising it's an elephant. Remember Solomon coming out of the tent to tell zachary and yingyue to diam because people were trying to sleep. Remember the coffee during dinner. Remember the milo balls in milo as a sweet sweet breakfast. Remember Yan Rui lagging behind and hearing him shouting that he found a method to tear the leeches apart, and seeing him emerge from behind the trees with his hands covered in blood. Remember the mass orgy of leeches on my leg, hidden by my shoe. Remember the 2km more and the X km by Joshua and Yan Rui. Remember seeing the abandoned orang aslit village and shouting "Fuck YES!". Remember seeing the wooden planks and shouting WOOT. Remember walking out of the forest. Remember the joy.

Tahan was an awesome experience. Remember arriving at the train station at 8, only to realise it was closed and only open at 11 or 12? Remember the tickets being sold out, and being unable to buy the tickets for the next train ride because it was for the 8am train and was considered a train ride for the next day, and the awesome policy of "tomorrow ticket, tomorrow buy". Remember hoping onto the train and the awesomeness that followed. Yea! Remember the welcoming of the seniors and the vivo experience.

Training has resumed. In fact I started already. Though my running has inevitably deteriorated, it's a matter of time before I get better.

Life is finally back to normal after holidays, and while it wasn't exactly relaxing, I had a time of my life. I don't regret my decision of joining Tahan. I enjoy it, and I am proud of being an official Tahanner.

On another topic, another dispute has surfaced. We all have our own reasons for what we do and we all react differently to the situations we are in. I want to say that what I think is really awesome about us is that we have had so many disputes, and yet we have been able to resolve them and emerge from them. To say we emerged stronger is but a cliche, but nonetheless we survived. Another dispute, another quarrel. However, I believe that given the two of you are close friends, that you would be able to resolve the conflict. I don't know if both of you still frequent this blog given it's stagnant nature and uncommon release of my random thoughts and emotional garbage, but if you do read this and know it's directed to you, I hope that you two can patch up. PartD10.

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On a side note, Blood C anime is out, and the anime ed is out. The full version isn't out yet and I'm too lazy to search for it given that my mind is still in a complete mess. Though the CD album art looks pretty damn nice. Hurhur. Paradox.

Tahan

2011-06-10T15:42:00.003+08:00

I hope Mother Nature accepts our wishes.

I hope our body is ready to face the challenges

I hope Gintama doesn't urinate into our drinking water.

The harshness of the mountain, this shall be our first step as SY3R6Y.

Let's reach our physical and emotional high now.

Best wishes

2011-06-01T21:26:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, best is simple.

Enjoy yourself, that's the best birthday gift anyone can give me.

I shall start revising now.

Tahan has been fun and exhilarating, but fun nonetheless.

However, it is now time for something more academical.

A pillar of excellence I shall try to build.

Hopefully, I won't pull another Babel.

Whenever I want to scale to an emotional high, I feel that it's quite impossible now.

It was all too surreal.

I really cherish the opportunities it has given me.

Though I shouldn't wonder in the foreign lands of the past, I feel that it's too enticing.

36th.

The pumping of blood, the frail arms, the sweat and dirt, the pain, the cramping, the abrasions, the cuts, the late nights, the regrets, the emotional hurt.

The enjoyment, the fulfillment, the accomplishment.

It has been a roller coaster ride.

I did not make the wrong choice.

Graduated! +D

2011-05-29T16:54:00.002+08:00

Thanks Jia Hui for asking if I was okay.

When I post, I really pour my emotions into the posts. They are kind of unrestrained. :(

On a side note.

36th! We'll soon scale Tahan! Let's do our best and hope that mother nature would allow us to scale the mountain. Physicals, we are probably near our peak.

Tipping Point

2011-05-22T13:13:00.003+08:00

The cracks surfaced. I'm sorry.

Sometimes, for one thing, I give up on another. How much can I actually handle the pressure, the stress? I am not sure myself.

I have given up. Is it the prudent course of action?

Emotional Rollercoster

2011-05-16T22:58:00.002+08:00

Many things have passed the past few weeks I have failed to post anything.

Examinations, Tahan, Illnesses, Injuries, Setbacks.

It's rather twisted when life decides to be funny.

However, the pain would always be his. It's scary.

I wish him the best of luck, and am sorry for having to put you through the agony of decision today.

Good luck for future endeavours. We'll be here.

Encounter - First Contact

2011-04-19T22:54:00.001+08:00

I'm updating this instead of doing homework at this supposedly ungodly hour.

Since I don't have much to say, I'll just post this video.

I don't usually listen to this type of music, wherein the vocals aren't that strong.

Advancement party, or individual?

2011-04-03T20:04:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry for the past week.

It's scary, because it was something I never expected. Not scary, but weird.

Something new, something gained, something lost, something to cry over, something to happy about.

I will try to open up. Give me time.

It's weird enough now.

It's like a vortex of emotions was galvansied by the constant approach.

I don't know if I am supposed to get it, but I think I am.

Unwillingly though, I should add.

Nonetheless, I shall open up.

Pissed

2011-03-28T21:33:00.004+08:00

It was originally 100% Effort, 0% Luck.

I'm a non-believer of luck.

OB Sabah - not in the list.

Not a leader?

BSC Registration.

BSC Application rejected.

CCA Exco Leader (Part A Platoon Sergeant), iSpark Councillor, OS for Open House

Reason: Child is not a leader.

Reach Cambridge Application.

Not within interview list.

2 years of research experience, missing of sabbaticals to do research at NUS, missing of lessons to go for competitions.

If I'm doing something wrong, please give me feedback and stop lifting me higher, only to drop me free-fall.

What makes you excited

2011-03-25T22:10:00.001+08:00

In the past, when I was around P3-4, I was still playing LF2, Gunbound, Maple, Counter Strike, RPGs and what not. Eventually I got tired of games, and decided to venture to something which would give me a sense of achievement. I turned to studies and decided that I would do well in my examinations.

In Secondary 1, I decided that I wanted to see the extent of the human body and the mental strength the mine conferred to me. I wanted to see the limitations pushed and boundaries broken. I wanted to do something I never thought possible. I wanted to see the look in their faces when I changed. I wanted to prove to myself I was able to achieve what I set my mind on. I wanted to get fit.

In Secondary 3, I decided I was closing my heart inwards. I was getting cold and removed from the world. I wanted to warm up and open. Seeing the smiling child or the laughing boy in the pictures, I couldn't recognise what I had grown to become. Couldn't serious and fun be intertwined to blossom into a spectacular flower? I wanted to become more sociable.

It's not about getting excited beforehand. I like to conquer my goals, my fears.

I don't know what makes me excited.

But I know what makes me smile each day.

Spree

2011-03-23T19:17:00.002+08:00

I'm on a gyming spree!

Anyway, felt like posting some songs. I don't listen to much songs. Sad but true.

On another note, its Christmas in an asylum:

On the other hand:

Hipppppy

2011-03-16T19:26:00.003+08:00

Please show me music that empowers me once more.

I'm really losing pace.

King of Limbs lacked the feeling-inducing effect of previous albums.

Nude, 2+2=5, Everything in its right place, Pyramid Song.

I'm glad that they didn't make inroads into the mainstream crap that has eroded the radio, but I was expecting a little more from their album.

Furthermore, an underwhelming 38 minutes couldn't satisfy the electronic-hungry side of fans.

Perhaps future work would satisfy the craving?

The ABCs of hiking: Abrasions, Blisters and Cuts

2011-03-16T01:19:00.002+08:00

Completed Ayam.

Enjoyable experience.

Will miss the hours of talk-cocking, the head-shaking.

Plus the plethora of un-glam photos and stoning faces.

Either way, the trip was epeak. What the zar.

Anyway, Scarlet Master will be out soon and I intend to get them. Yays.

I don't really understand why people want to stereotype people as muggers. Come on, it's not as though people like us have no life. We simply do not want to indulge in the pleasures of mainstream pop culture. We simply take things from another perspective. We have different goals, mindsets and attitudes. What we identify as "mindless" or "stupid" we don't do and occasionally mock. We voice our opinions and stand our ground. No amount of persuasion or criticism can change us. In a sense we are hard-headed non-conformists who do what we like, an what we advocate.

I don't really understand what's wrong with studying? What does the occupation of a student encompass? Studying no? Maybe it's because of the culture here that people do not study and simply burn the midnight oil. Or maybe people are just hitting the right notes and hoping that with the bare minimum, they can get what they want. However, I believe that ample preparation is downright necessary in securing your goals. I do not believe in luck alone. I believe in hard work and luck. 100% effort, 100% luck.

Also, please do not judge a person without knowing. It's irritating.

On another note, the message of the catastrophe in Japan was very shocking. I'm seriously lost for words. I guess the silver lining of the entire incident was that Mother Nature's wrath occurred within Japan which is undeniably an advanced and well-connected country. Of course, psychologically and economically, the impact is definitely going to take a huge toll. It's sad.

I failed lol

2011-03-07T21:47:00.000+08:00

Himesama is releasing a new single.
BUY

Not running, but running a fever

2011-02-14T20:33:00.003+08:00

I'm down with fever, flu, cough, stomach flu, body aches and diarrhoea.

This officially halts all my trainings and makes me feel super unfit.

Soon, I'll be sporting a obtuse body shape.

Today was Valentine's Day.

and I received gifts. ._.

Really appreciated, regardless of the size of the gift or the time spent into it [of course the more the better :)], ultimately it's the thought that really counts.

First day of school.

Apparently I'm an Owl. ~~So I can now hypontise people and inflict chunks of 100 to people's life points. Bleh.~~

Looking forward to tomorrow.

I've got to say that JC life is a 180 degree difference from the quiet high school life.

Guilt

2011-02-12T10:50:00.000+08:00

I'm really sorry for the harm done yesterday.

Even if it was unintentional, guilt is whelming. Sorry.

Nice ratio

2011-02-07T22:06:00.002+08:00

7 Boys, 19 girls, probably compensated with the existence of Chan Wei.

Nice ratio.

Inspired by Tiet Ho to update my blog since he says he admires those sort of assiduous techno-geeks, I shall attempt to update my blog on a weekly basis. ._.

I'm happy with my class I guess, it was quite unexpected to be honest.

Since I don't really have anything much to say as I want to read newspapers, I guess I shall randomly post a video for no particular reason at all.

Shows that nothing much is generated from the nigh rotten and mouldy pink matter stuffed in my head. What an airhead.

Wandering Son

2011-02-04T21:11:00.000+08:00

Hourou Musuko

Yuno-kun

2011-02-03T00:30:00.002+08:00

Biggest anticipation: Release of subject combination and of course class allocation.

It might be a placebo effect, but I guess it's more of a sense of satisfaction and guarantee.

Run

On another note, happy CNY.

I'm not particularly psyched over this whole thing to go high.

Hence my lukewarm greeting. Sorry for killing the mood.

Genetic Biasedness

2011-01-30T19:23:00.002+08:00

It's a rather tendentious stand, but I wholeheartedly believe it's true.

Genetics play a large part, and sometimes, effort is mitigated largely which results in disappointments aplenty.

Haiz, that's why I hate running.

Sad, definitely, but what can I do about it?

The simplest answer would be to run.

Sometimes, people might have put in lesser effort and bear more fruit, but is that going to deter us? I hope not, but it would indefinitely affect you somehow.

Just run more yea?

Idiosyncrasies yay

2011-01-17T16:55:00.003+08:00

I had my first lesson of JC today, supposedly.

Pseudo-lecture might be more apt, as the syllabus is repeated.

Holidays over, must activate mugging mode.

Don't want to disappoint any teachers or make my friends think I'm some sloth.

The anime in this season kind of meh :x

I think I'll set up a calender to indicate what shows I'm watching in a week.

As of yet, I don't really think that Dragon Crisis or Zombie-kun is gonna be a big hit with me.

Mitsudomoe is kind of win. Gachi Rangers win.

Freezing is somewhat okay, nudity censored with random flying pieces of cloth. Normal.

I gave up on Beelzebub.

Gonna try to tahan Rainbow Rio. Random plot if you ask me.

Fractale, Onni Chan are somewhat okay.

I have high expectations for Hourou Musuko. Unique animation, and a host of popular seiyuu. Go go, don't disappoint.

On the other hand, Star Driver and Hidamari Sketch are seriously awesome. Love Hidamari Sketch. Star Driver is getting all serious now. Scary.

Re-read negima, medaka box and finished nyotai-ka.

Back to mugging now.

I surely win.

Dedicated to TK

2011-01-09T22:21:00.002+08:00

Wrote this in a hurry, no time for re-reading to correct and grammatical errors.

I think right, going to chinese class might not be as beneficial as one might think. Because, in class, the Scheme of Work would be very exam-focused. The entire program would be dedicated to ensuring that the students would be able to sit for the exams and do well. However, in the end, you might not learn the basic chinese words that you seek to learn. Like the question you gave me in the bus yesterday, in class, I dun think they would actually teach you what is say post office in Chinese.

However, I think that what you say about Chinese being able to bolster your "value" in the future has some shred of truth in it. The world is globalising, if we are going to say that China people are learning English, then why not say that the US people or perhaps the Whites in general are seeking Chinese proficiency. Furthermore, China's population is over the top, with a singular entitiy being able to rival that of the West in the near future.

So right, I think that what yongxiang said is better. Instead of say maybe attending class, just speak more Chinese or read more Chinese. I guess the Chinese Newspaper would help. Because inside, they would provide and enrich you with a wider set of vocab than let's say in class. As said, classes are meant for exam-purposes. The newspaper on the other hand is a mirror of the world, it would surely have more Chinese characters which are of relevance to the real world and give you a deeper insight of the world in the form of Chinese charavters.

That said, attending Chinese classes does not have any drawbacks, except that you trade away time. Time can be spent on many things, I'm not sure if you would like to spend your free time on Chinese. Maybe when you are totally devoid of work or fill like a change of atmosphere is suitable, then go attend Chinese classes. Eventually, your A Level results are absolute, you can only take them once, barring any re-examinations. However, Chinese can be practised any time, and instead of you accommodating the Chinese lessons, you should use your time freely without inhibation or a fixed lesson schedule.

Though at the end, practising Chinese is your own choice.

Obligated Posting :)

2011-01-05T21:15:00.002+08:00

Okay, I recently completed 2x2=shinobuden, medaka box and witchblade.

Medaka box is quite addictive. I think the shonen genre can be epitomised with all the fighting, though they don't go as excessive like let's say the mainstream bleach/naruto fights where you fight, you grow more power due to love/hate blah and the bullcrap. However, the real candy is probably the charade of villains the show introduces. Kuawagawa is seriously creepy, nihilistic little freak, with a permanent smile etched on his face, reminds me of joker.

Best villain.

2x2=shinobuden is really random, but would definitely garner some LOLs and random laughter. I'm not sure, if you are into anime which MUST have a fast-paced plot where tension is supposedly high, then this anime is bleh. If you are into Lucky Star-ish anime, treat.

Witchblade is really good. My linguistic skills fail me here. Really exceeded expectations. I always though that from the first episode I walked into a "boob-mine", though I was really wrong. The pacing is slow, but I like that sort of thing as it allows for an easier more relaxing watching pace.

I might just ragequit on beelzebub anime, seeing the stoopid animation. I don't know.

Looming expectations

2010-12-30T23:45:00.003+08:00

SCHOOL IS COMING!

Either you look forward to the new curriculum or you look forward to the added distractions strategically dotted around the lecture theaters or the class, enough for you to throw that book down and fantasize.

I didn't say that.

Anyway, I've enough of reading long-winded articles on the zeitgeists of this ending century. Bleh, time to post videos because I haven't been doing that in a while.

I'm telling you, it's all about female singers.

Even electronically-altered female cover versions are better than the original.

No, I don't listen to vocaloids.

Please, don't think of the assets.

Lately, I have been watching more than listening, so I dun have much songs. Unless... uh

For all reasons, the correlation between the latter and the former is a relationship of superiority, with the latter obviously superseding the former.

Kira wins again.

And Near was a L rip-off.

Okay nevermind.

Moving on, I really like this version of I will possess your heart.

Done, finish, nothing else to say. I'm beat.

Dedication

2010-12-28T20:52:00.004+08:00

For the heck of it, I shall post what I would be intending to watch/read next year:

(Note: Done on pure whim, so nothing inspirational or educational would come out from this pile of rubbish; aim is for the mere satisfaction of posting something during this enjoyable holidays and for Fanyi since he asked me why I ceased the posting)

1. 2x2=shinobuden (Waiting for torrent to finish)

2. Witchblade (Waiting for torrent to finish)

3. Beelzebub (Seriously looking forward to it, hopefully they follow the plot and not pull another Sora no Otoshimono on us)

4. Ao no Exorcist (For the heck of it)

5. Yumekui Merry (Lol seriously)

6. Toriko

7. Gintama (How can I not?)

8. Steins Gate (Looks interesting I guess, give it a shot)

9. Deadman Wonderland (I got intrigued with the manga)

10. Zan Zetsubou Sensei (I have it already, can't find time to watch it)

11. APPLESEED (Heard it was interesting, take a shot I guess)

12. Zaregoto Series (Somehow, I will read it)

13. Medaka Box (Fandom)

14. Kizumonogatari (ZOMGWTF)

So far that's what I'm seeing. Subject to change, looking at my future timetable and schedule.

Pixel-Prawn

2010-12-23T01:20:00.003+08:00

lol, what's with the infection from tingky's blog?

And I'm still Alive&Kicking, enjoying the Hybrid Universe now.

I'm waiting for Great Activity which would reward me with an Ultimate Diamond.

I hope the Impact of events stemming from this period of momentary escapism is sufficient to Excite(r) me.

Lame post, I'm still alive.

New skin

2010-11-25T00:10:00.002+08:00

Sight reformatting to the blog, for the fun of it.

Might find a use for it sooner or later.

So why not.

=.=

Perpetual evolution

2010-11-23T23:20:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, being smart, is not necessarily about the end.

Sometimes, being smart, is about the means.

Sometimes, being smart, involves both.

They intertwine.

But I'm the gardener.

I'll choose.

So those plants had better watch out.

2 - Second Best

2010-11-23T00:10:00.002+08:00

Quite a bad post if you ask me, so if you are in high spirits, refrain from reading.

Also, please be so kind as to read the mood.

Sometimes, I feel that effort is futile. I know the night is still young, that I have not experienced much, that I'm still a toddler, learning to walk.

However, I always had a belief that a consistent performance was better than burning the midnight oil. However, what if on the final moment, everything just goes bad, wrong, unexpectedly dreadful and demoralising.

I remember many of my exams which went wrong. I'm not saying that I continuously jab at these so-called failures, because they are in fact not failures, in fact rather "imba" grades from the perspective of my peers. However, why is it that sometimes, when the second ticks by, when the time to strike that elusive slab of iron is moments away, you simply slip up. The results turn out haywire - failure in my eyes.

It's disheartening, that life is full of ups and downs. Sometimes things turn out good, sometimes it turns out bad. However, why is it that luck is never by my side. There is a reason that I always wrote 0% luck, because I simply believed that I had no luck. I believe in creating your own opportunities, I believe your own hard work. That is why, I would study all 20 bio topics, and what do I get, a pitiful 78. That is probably why, I studied all the IHC bull****, yet I scored a bloody C5. Worst of all, sure, my handwriting sucked, but why, must you tell me during this final examination, and disgrace me with a bloody 8/20 when I needed a mere 11/20.

Effort.

Does it pay off?

Sure it does, but I want a full 100% success rate. Perfection, target, I get easily confused.

I believed that with effort, I would be able to overcome odds. Yet, I see many people around me, forgive me, who simply rely on luck. Yes, they did put in the effort, but I have stayed with them, I have seen them live. Do they put in the same amount of effort I put in? No. I don't want to sound arrogant, but I'm really demoralised. Mea Culpa.

Sorry.

For those who have read till here, you guys are probably thinking that this spoiled brat needs to see the world, needs to understand his position. Yes, I know I am privileged asshole born in this unfair world. It's just that I need a platform to rant my feelings.

It's a downpour here. I don't want to get washed away by the torrents of emotional confusion. It's just that, I'm kind of empty handed.

Drown.

Before the absentminded readers post, I implore you to read the mood.

HNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-11-22T01:04:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, we need to open our eyes wider.

Clear our thoughts, and simply recall.

Though sometimes,

we should simply fall in those blissful clouds of past

Irony

2010-11-17T21:31:00.002+08:00

The first post is gonna be a rant, so you might want to skip it.

Sometimes, it's not good to be a "nice guy" all the time.

Time after time, I am disappointed with the lukewarm approach people take. It's pretty much a facade which no longer works. A broken tool. Useless.

What's the point of saying that you would like to do it when the effort you put in is hardly recognizable. I believe wholeheartedly I have the right to say this - this isn't baseless accusation. It's accumulative anger.

I sacrifice my time just for your work. I'm only expecting that you do your part of the deal.

Sometimes, I feel that you simply do this for personal benefit. I'm refraining myself from allowing this simple thought from making me stop work.

Are you really there as a team player? I believe this isn't hyperbolic ranting. This parasitic relationship is sad.

Let me tell you a cute story.

Tngky! If you are reading this, I think you might know why I am feeling uncomfortable with my family from time to time.

When I was young, I think around P1 or P2, I was described by my mum as a "happy-go-lucky" boy. My kindergarten teacher said that I was always smiling and all sunshine blah blah.

Then I think there was a turning point in Sec 1? I felt that I didn't like this home I lived in. Could be the rebellious age now that I think of it. The seed which bore this feelings was "unhappiness" in the family. My brother and my sister were both brought up with my mom at their sides. I'm no different, though I was deemed "independent" in P6 so I started studying and doing things by my own. So my bro so called relied on my mum. Simply said, he couldn't really handle the pressure. So he often cried and my mum and dad would get pissed and they would start arguing with my bro. I believe most people don't like the feelings of having their family quarrel, and I am no exception. So whenever this types of quarrels happen, I would tend to "close off". So my brother eventually grew big and cool and hence the quarrels stopped. But then the same thing started happening to my sister. I guess I was around Sec 2 back then? So I secluded myself from my family quite often. Soon, I grew quite distant from my family excluding my mother because she came "visiting" me quite often. After EOY Sec 3 I think, I realised that what I was doing was wrong. So I decided to patch up this decaying relationship. However by then I felt that I felt rather awkward with them.

I guess I'm writing this just to let myself see that self-exclusion from one's family isn't the best solution. It's certainly not the wisest decision.

Of course, there were many events which catalysed the process but I shall not elaborate.

First of, I would like to say sorry to Kenneth, because I wasn't sure if I said sorry to him yesterday for ruining his hair. o.o

Moving on anyway, as Xin Chuan put it, I'm probably camera-shy or maybe I just don't like taking pictures. Sometimes when I take pictures, i guess I would overdo things? Or maybe it's just me.

zzz

2010-11-17T01:12:00.003+08:00

I lost battle factory again at my 11th round <- wtf

Anyway, my stone edge missed three times and then my reversal only got me to red =.=

The three stone edge missed seriously sucked. Because they came from a max attack rampardos. Like what the...

lol I hate the costume again

But who cares. Nice song nia.

uh, lol I really like Nanka Buttobase.

Won't post the video, because people would probably think I'm going for the band because they are "cute". (Quote quote from youtube) I'm a lousy fan, I don't know who is who, so if someone would like to enrich me feel free. Don't flame.

For those who would like the link, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=urE5dnYBJPE

Though it will probably be taken down soon.

Someone please recommend me music again.

Thanks.

Wait, oh yar.

Someone give me advice, I want to buy Mother Earth from HMV.

But it's 42 dollars =.=

Yar, it was released 10 years ago.

Oh yar, Black Symphony is too epic.

The first song I heard from Within Temptation o.o

As in the studio version. Yar, Ice Cream =.=

Katanagatari 11

2010-11-14T22:51:00.003+08:00

Writing time: 14 November 10:52pm

I believe it has come full cycle. It's regrettable but I believe it's now complete.

Given the fact that juniors probably won't bother reading this blog though many messages were sent out to them, starting with the aflame inferno insert, I guess none of that matters anymore. As the title says, it has become completed.

Sometimes, when we come to a position of authority, we simply become unrestrained and act blindly and in a sense, impulsively. Granted, when placed in a position of authority, it is a symbol of one's hard work coming to fruition. Then again, I guess, some people just didn't grow mentally, merely physically, though I am especially wary of the latter too.

It might not be the final nail in the coffin, though in the end, all of these nails would be accumulative and in some cases, the initial is the final. It takes one simple mistake to tarnish that clean slate. It would be etched deeply. I personally believe in forgiving, but some might not. I guess that's sad, but that's life.

6 months. I have seen much.

Then again, there is another 6 months to spare. Just because you are on top, doesn't mean you can create your own rules. If this 州官放火之权 continues, it might lead to a continuous cycle which would prove to be difficult and troublesome to reverse. Stop acting so high and mighty. It merely makes you look low. For those who are supposedly acting behind the scenes, you are still in a position of influence. You can still make a difference, that is if you try hard enough.

I really wish this would not end up a mirror.

6 months. I have yet to see much.

华文

2010-11-01T22:27:00.002+08:00

Gah, I just completed the NYGH chinese paper. I overshot the time by what, 4 minutes? zzz

Anyway, I just received my order of Silent Bible and NC5. Please don't flame me thanks.

Oh and Solomon, if you are reading this, the photo you uploaded recently, the person looked like guankoi. Dun get pissed with me plox.

I'm taking things very slowly now. Trying to chillax and not outdo and burn myself out before the exams. Rant! 物极必反, I earnestly support this point of view now. The way we are going now is seriously whacked up. How are we expected to read, digest and stuff all this information into our thumb-drive spaced brain. It's not as though we are pro chinese peeps with memory space like hard-drives. Nevermind, totally out of point.

I started on:

MM! (Episode 5 rocks, ero power)

Seitokai no Ichizon (After hearing Qwaswer wasn't good I jumped on the Ichizon boat)

Fortune Arterial (Slow plot, but nice and clean animation)

By Little Sister Can't Be This Cute (TINGKY! Okay, this anime is about in_______) =.=

Sora no Otoshimono (Finished Season 1, now on forte. Masked dupants is a man among man, just like franky)

Otome Youkai Zakuro (Uhh, I like Agemaki's singing?)

Shinryaku! Ika Musume!!!!!! (I stopped, would continue after Higher Chinese concludes)

Yay, but then again, katanagatari is coming to an end.

And Shiki just came back from oblivion. I'll stick to the manga.

Katanagatari is the best series for me thus far. The animation is simple yet very attractive. Uhh, and shichika is plain ossm with a sword.

Dun want to spoil anyone reading this. =.=

Anyway, I really like this live concert.

Uh, I think this is the first non-female lead which I posted? Actually, there was a video of better quality, but I can't seem to find it.

Since I'm already on a streak, might as well continue:

Same person. I believe he's a he. o.o chinese overload.

back to mugging now :))))))

Death Note

2010-10-15T13:06:00.002+08:00

Huhuh, I like Edward's comment.

Anyway, I watched a few episodes and the biggest impact is the OP. The second one :))

Examinations are seriously scary. Period

Jap Music, from limited scope

2010-09-25T23:22:00.002+08:00

Working real late tonight, maybe not even sleeping :) Fun

Scandal-Space ranger is ossm. Because of the random jumping weird bear like thing with the stitched face. Okay nevermind.

I tried sampling Perfume, not the chemical ester, but the trio itself. Didn't like the sound. Probably offending maybe people now.

Okay I said this before, but I don't like Japanese artists moving into the English industry.

Okay scrap that, I don't like anime being dubbed as well :D

Okay, I think I'm rather screwed if this is viewed by some American audiances.

No offence.

However, I think most importantly, as long as the evil english dubbers don't remove the music, anime is still cool. Because the only thing that distinguishes anime from cartoon is that anime has an awesome soundtrack that can impact you to the core.

Seriously, this is seriously a truckload of good-stuff bundled into 2:45 minutes of goodness.

After 2:46, it starts to suck :D

Music updates

2010-09-22T01:30:00.003+08:00

Okay, started on a few new bands. So called fledglings, dawn has yet to come, so I can't say much. Nonetheless, I kinda like their style thus far.

Okay, The Agonist, kudos to Solomon. I think he was being whimsical when he introduced it to me. But who cares :) First time I had ...And their eulogies send me to sleep, it was scary lol.

Whoever who can decipher the album art please enlighten this lost soul.

Next was In This Moment, because I was looking through Arch Enemy or Unsun. Can't remember, but somehow I stumbled upon Violet Skies.

I agree that male screams have more impact. But whatever.

So cool, fully English songs. I don't think this happened before o.o

O.o EDIT!!!

I ordered my NC5, and Undercover album woo.

Shows that I still am trying to have a life.

Rant

2010-09-09T13:51:00.001+08:00

Some people just need to know when to stop.

When going overboard, they put up a load of crap and claim they are right.

When other people do something, they put up the same load of crap and claim you are wrong.

Hypocrite.

Stuff to say while procrastinating :)

2010-08-31T22:02:00.005+08:00

Okay, I just want to say that I think people should change their attitude towards music. People shouldn't go around posting or saying nasty comments like: Oh, they stink, or, Crap they can't sing. Stuff like that. First of all, they have the courage to even perform. Applaud them. Can you do the same without stage fright? Maybe you can, but I know many can't. So for that bulk of people, including me of course, I think we should just shut our mouth.

Oh yea, so I'm procrastinating my mugging for Bio Olympiad. Because slacking is just so much fun.

So anyway, this is going to be a very unZacharyish post. :)

So many smilies :)

So I'm not sure if what the group is doing is correct. I personally never had anyone I felt really close to in Primary school. My best friend wasn't exactly a close friend. So technically speaking, the only time I felt that I knew my friends was in Secondary school. I don't really support the idea of daoing people, though I was introduced to its effectiveness during the whimsical quarrels between me, Maung Thet and Qin Jiang. Then again, I still believe in the direct method of speaking your thoughts. No point concealing your feelings and being Mr Nice Guy. Take the Guan Koi approach and be direct. Being direct isn't necessarily being harsh and mean. The words you use of course play a part. The tone definitely. Also, I do not think we should fake a front for others. Of course, we do not know what is truly us. The you when you are alone isn't necessarily the real you. The us we perceive ourselves to be comes naturally when you are next to people close to you. I think I once told Maung Thet or Tiet Ho or Qin Jiang that this is so as when you are close to them, you are unafraid of showing your flaws, knowing that they won't mind them or even if they were to mind them, they would simply tell you off. And from there you work to change.

Crap, I talked too much. Organisation fail.

So anyway, I was kind of hoping we could have avoided this. Sometimes, being Mr Nice Guy isn't necessarily the best. I don't like people creating conflicts within themselves when from the very beginning, they never existed. Sometimes, it takes time and effort. You cannot with just the snap of your fingers make a person like you. Never will, never happens. I can find many flaws with people I consider friends. Chin Yee occasionally talks but doesn't act. I see that, yet I still think of him as a friend. Zachary and Guan Koi are very direct and might sometimes make me feel uncomfortable. I see that, I endure, and I still see them as friends. Qin Jiang and Maung Thet have random mood swings from time to time. I don't care, eventually they'll cool down. Bryan is very very very blur. I feel uncomfortable and irritated, but I laugh it off. Yong Xiang might be very demanding at times, I think many people know this, but who cares. We laugh if off. Tan Yang used to be very stubborn, but I see him in a different light now. We endured through that trait of his, and I think he has changed much. Ting Kai and Solomon like to show off their muscles in front of me, but I don't care. I can't really write anymore. All this were impromptu, I didn't really think them true. I t just goes to show that people have distinctive flaws(at least to me) and that people do not really care. However, when the same theory was applied to you, I feel that you were quite weird. That you weren't really truly expressing yourself. I can't understand you to be honest. I'm not sure if what is within you is really that complex, or you were simply trying ti get us to pity you. Because your words never matched your actions.

I hope you wouldn't get angry with me and perhaps reply to me in an email if you think I'm referring to you.

I don't want to lose anymore friends.

Just, try to think through.

No motivation to mug

2010-08-29T20:49:00.001+08:00

Usually you have a reason to study.

I concede defeat.

First time ever, I do not want to mug...

SPA Skill 3 just owned my career. :(

Orz

2010-08-24T23:24:00.002+08:00

I was distracted while mugging again, so I decided to post for the fun of it. :))

http://blog.mizukinana.jp/blog_nana/post_1236.php

lol, without translating, Ali Project made me o.o

Nothing much to be said, lest I would be ranting about events I would be missing. =.=

http://www.mizukinana.jp/news/index_dvd.html

I want to pre-order nana clips 5, but I haven't enough money yet.

T.T

I want to see the Orchestra...

T.T

I'm really looking forward to musterion full version. 深爱another edit was quite a surprise. Though I was hoping for another PV, perhaps with the new album, with something like a futuristic Astrogation PV. I'm somewhat looking forward to 悦楽カメリア. Don't think of me badly. HD is the sheez.

Don't judge me!!!

Trying other music now, ventured to The Agonist, All that remains, In this moment.

Okay I shall be honest, I can take pseudo screams and screams. But my head implodes after 1 hour. I'm that much of a noob. Sorry Solomon and Tiet Ho, I'm a total failure :(

But Melodic metalcore is quite nice. Though I would most probably be sticking with the classic symphonic metal.

Sometimes, I wish bands would be more efficient. I mean, if an artist, :0, can announce the production of an album 9 months before and finish by the time of release, why can't the bands follow suit. Okay, don't flame me. I know they have a life, and some noob like me shouldn't be posting this stuff. All IMLO, "L" being lousy.

T.T

Inferiority complex sheesh

Rant - Studies?

2010-08-20T21:25:00.002+08:00

Today I made a promise to myself, that I would state as objectively as possible, the reasons why I mug.

This post would be very critical of those around, so be warned. I have somewhat cooled down a bit, though I might just flare up midway through the post. Profanities would be interjected throughout the post, thought I would as much as possible abstain from doing so, though the restraint cannot be kept in check. This would be unedited, straight from heart.

Reason for why I mug/study:

The sole reason why I study is simply because I do not want to disappoint.

I do not want to disappoint myself. I have come to this world. I have an occupation as a student. Henceforth, I think it is only reasonable that I put my best into this dubious job I am bestowed upon by the government. This means that I should as much as possible do my best to excel in my studies. Then again, I do believe in luck, as can be seen from all my posts. I believe a modicum of intelligence and a truckload of effort are the ingredients to scoring well, and excelling in whatever you are doing. Hence, even if the subject is supposedly "unstudiable" I would find means to do so, defying this rule other people have set.

Next, I hate people who complain and do not take action. Complaining is fine. But if you do not take action, then there is seriously something wrong with you. I complain, yes I admit that trait. Perhaps it is only human, I don't know. Hence, as much as possible, whenever I complain, I take action. I have always been complaining about receiving lousy grades, hence I decided to see a change in my grades. Then again, the only possible and viable means of doing so is via studying. Through crude work and effort, I believe that eventually, I can change my grades. I don't want to be voice without any action. That is just stupid and f'ed up.

Reason for why I study the languages:

Whenever I hear people tell me that language cannot be studied, and laugh at me for studying it, I just receive the personal insults without retaliating. You know what, fuck that. I fucking don't want to hear that language cannot be studied. If that were to be true, how the hell were you able to talk to me. You mean you were born knowing how to talk. Can language really not be learnt. I seriously believe that language can be learnt, like all other things. Yes, I agree that my way of studying might be extreme, but I don't want to hear other people saying that language cannot be learnt. If language really can't be learnt, you should jsut keep it to yourself. Good for you, you are good in the languages. I am not. Okay, is this acceptable? Hence, i just want to study. I wish that by putting in effort, I would be able to see a jump in grades. I do not want to stagnate and vegetate while constantly complaining that I am unable to proceed and excel. Hypocrites. I don't want to fucking hear a single thing about language not being able to be learnt.

I ended of becoming pissed and emotional, so this argument is definitely flawed in many ways. Then again, this were the first thoughts that came to my mind, and are probably the main reasons which drive me through the night. I don't mind people telling me that studying cannot be done in certain environments or that I am taking my studies too seriously. I apologise if I have made you angry, or have made you sad. I am in the wrong, I am too blame. Please accept the apologies. However, for those who have constantly been telling me that languages cannot be studied, and that there is no point in studying, I hope you do not take this post as a rebuttal, but take all this biased arguments with a pinch of salt. They are my perspectives, and coming from a human, they are naturally flawed.

I have injected spirit back into my mutilated blog due to some folly I committed some time ago, and is still in the midst of repair. So the tagboard and some other functions are disabled. If you have any comments, feel free to talk to me about it. I would gladly hear your POV. Thanks.

Sorry for the profanities.

Sorry for any possible insults.

Demoralised

2010-08-12T19:05:00.003+08:00

I feel down now.

So far, I can't exactly say that I am very happy with my present situation.

If only, I could see my efforts come to fruition.

Futile Resistance

2010-08-10T16:18:00.003+08:00

It's during times like this, where I feel that I am utterly useless. Visceral, if you would like to call it. It's stupid. It's been going on for god knows how long. I can't break the unending trend.

Sometimes, I hate it when people complain to me. Of course, only certain types of complaints annoy me. I hate it when they come complaining, saying that Oh life is unfair, life stinks, the whole world is against you. With that, you carry on with life, as though you didn't say anything. I hate it when they don't implement any changes to rectify these so called problems in their life. Secondly, I hate it when people complain to you, thinking that you are always available to listen to their drones. You know what, I have my problems too. Everyone has their problems. I don't mind you telling me your problems, but don't make it sound as though you are the most pitiable character is this tragic play called life. Seriously, tell me your problems, but also tell me what you have done. Talking a bunch of crap without doing anything is really stupid you know. I like it when people show me that they have done something about their problem, even if it does not work. To those people, I would gladly give them my thought of the matter and provide some of my personal insight into the matter. I'll give them my all. Life isn't fair, but that's what makes it fair. It is fair, because everyone struggles, and through this struggling, can you truly shine. Without action, you are nothing but a loser who can only complain.

Another type of person I hate are those who take a bunch of philosophical bullshit and yet go against their words sooner or later without even realising it. Even if they realise it, they make a regretful face and apologise. You know what, it's fucking not working on me. You want to apologise? Let your actions do the talking. I'll gladly accept that apology.

I am really sick of this nonsense. I'm glad it's all coming to an end.

Maths Test

2010-07-19T17:16:00.002+08:00

ORD is over. It feels weird.

Seems likes nostalgia grips me tighter now.

Maths test was over. I think I did rather okay. o.o

Except for the proving of the differential of cosine x being negative sine x. Killer question. Nah, I'm just too prideful too admit my stupidity. :)

Now, whenever I look pass, I can smile.

Be the same guys.

Live it to the fullest. Bond. Grow stronger.

Such weird feelings. Maybe I'm like Louis

Anime updates

2010-07-18T23:06:00.001+08:00

Starting on:

Shiki

Highschool of the Dead

Occult Academy

Live on, pave your path

General

2010-07-11T00:29:00.004+08:00

It's been a while since I have updated my blog.

I truckload of events have passed, and I cannot exactly say that I have enjoyed the events thus far.

First of all, I would like to say, that if there won't idiots around the world, then the word wouldn't even be coined. So let's just accept their existance and hope to change them. Of course, do not fall in the same pitfall and turn into the idiots that they are. Meaning, do not reciprocate with your heart and respond with your head. If you have a brain that is. Many people often criticize others, labeling them as "bas****s" and such (censored because young minds are formative and because it's not a habit), degrading oneself to the same pathetic level of their subjects. Seriously, think before you act. People can change, just give them a hand, and talk with your head.

Next thing, 我最恨的人就是那些经常出尔反尔的混蛋. Seriously, they say but don't complete. How can we possibly trust them.

Change mood, cannot flare up, lest this becomes a rant.

I receive my IE - Limited Edition yesterday, with AK and Live @ Bodukan. Stupid thing is I dun have the time to pry open the box and pop it into my computer. Totally stinks. I've waited one whole month, and receive it on 8 July. Woo.

Saving up on money again. Going to get Hybrid Universe and GA next, together with Eternal Blaze Single. I just realised that I played Trickster so many times. The first song I listened to, so it makes sense.

This week kind of stinks. I don't know why, must be because I fell prey to the bug.

PDay was quite good, just that I need to complete biotech fair report. =.=

Oral Defence announced, using Sec 4 Project.

Still left with Powerpoint on Eugenics.

Friday is the day where stress would be alleviated. Mark your calenders!

Love... It's in my justice

- The only lyrics which caught my attention, my primary mode of communication is English, mother tongue being chinese, so no one can flame me XD

Smile smile

十六岁

2010-07-06T18:12:00.002+08:00

嗨！！！

十六岁了，虽然不是很渴望的一件事，但这代表我十六年所积累的经验，一天一天过的日子。

还记得，小时候，总是为了小事情而大发脾气。还记得臭骂哥哥是个"Son of a Bi***"。那时候妈妈听了，骂了我一顿。:P

那些日子已过了，现在应该成熟了，不再是以前的小孩子，牵着父母哥哥的手。

再也不能徘徊了。

将来所发生的事，我能应付吗？困难能克服吗？友情能保持吗？

这六十年，我高兴不高兴啊？

虽然叫天不应叫地不灵，但这答案，我早已知道了。

开学

2010-06-27T21:20:00.002+08:00

又要开学了，不知道应该感到开心或感到闷。

这假期，每天都得上学，明天再次回学校，这循环闷得要命。

现在读华文，为了年终考试而特地准备，也为了未来。当我踏入社会时，不知能以华文与其他人沟通，不知别人是否会觉得本人华人通顺。

唉，别多想，去读书吧

感想繁多

2010-06-20T13:01:00.002+08:00

假期一转眼就快结束了。

这假期却对我不是什么假期。假期只是个名称，我们其实在过着没必要上课的日子。

天天得回学校，而且功课繁琐，压力沉重，华文怎么能学好呢？

我非常不满，但我这一番埋怨，能得到什么成果？

只好发奋图强，为未来作准备。

Impact Exciter! 那时候你才会除来呢？！

华文

2010-06-11T09:25:00.003+08:00

华文其实非常好读。

太可惜只有最近才发觉到。

Yes, I'm preparing for O-level Higher Chinese.

The more I listen to Young Alive!, the more is sticks, I might reconsider removing the previous rant.

Hmm, life sure is full of whim.

Maybe I was just in a bad mood then when I first listened to it.

The wrong time and the wrong place.

I might be lifting the barricade from the outside world on this blog.

Wait and see I guess

除此之外：

限量版

普通版

我订了限量版，正迫不及待地等待着。

Rant

2010-06-07T17:02:00.002+08:00

This post composes of rants in its wholesome entirety, so the tone wouldn't be very nice.

I am somewhat displeased with the way Impact Exciter is shaping up.

Musterion was fairly awesome in its own way, but it sounds very pop, though it probably lands in the genre of hard pop.

The next Young Alive! sounded very pop IMO.

I seriously hope that the other songs would be something like Gozen Reiji Baby Doll, or something like 真冬の観覧車.

Even Perfect Smile or 光 would be nice.

To be honest, after UD went to top the Oricon charts, I was somewhat fearful, that there might be a shift to the mainstream media. I am openly very anti-mainstream.

I hope that the other songs would be able to satisfy these conditions.

On the next point, the songs in Live Academy were seriously sad.

Nana hime sama shouldn't work herself so hard. I am glad to say that her performances in both Animelo and on Music Japan were still acceptable.

Though Unchain World sounded just sad, Eternal Blaze dropped an entire tier.

Has she worked her vocals too hard?

From all the updates, she has been working hard non-stop. Perhaps a break would be good for you Nana-hime sama. You are still a human after all.

Aside from Nana, SCANDAL's later single was totally bleh~

It just sounded so pop.

Shunkan Sentimental was just awesome, why did the next single turn out so bad?!

Nonono

Please, bring salvation to my ears!

I can't fathom

2010-05-31T22:01:00.001+08:00

Why some people are so blatantly irresponsible.

Despise.

I can never understand.

----

Examinations + Brunei + Mid Year tests

2010-05-28T22:09:00.003+08:00

A lot has drifted by, and I move on.

Examinations and tests are the same mundane routine. Mug, write, ache, slack, cry, rejoice, see your MSG, crawl under the table...

MSG: 2.00

I want to cry.

Started on CLANNAD.

Quite interesting, though I don't quite understand some portions.

I got real spooked out too...

IMMPEKTU EXCCITOOOOOR!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

When I got back from Brunei, sunburnt/tanned and all, I didn't expect a welcome present.

Yay, 7/7/10

Can't wait.

I started talking to those around.

Some were responsive, some were rude.

I'm glad there are those around me, who will support me.

I thank them.

Respect and envy.

It's intertwined with love.

Mid year camp is coming soon.

Come on PartAs.

Endure

nakama

2010-05-11T20:44:00.002+08:00

When the road ends, it doesn't mean a new one lies beyond.

Pave your way, dig through the soil, run headstrong.

11 May 2010.

NCC.

What does it ultimately train us to be?

Recently, I have been taking note of actions from a certain few people. It is saddening to note that among our friends, I have identified traces of elitism brewing.

Call it a wake up call.

He pointed it out to us.

Think and accept. Never reject.

Lest, the world would despise you.

Your close friends would part. You would be deserted, alone, sad, mad, crestfallen.

It's a scary feeling.

You definitely do not want to experience it.

Cherish

Reflections

2010-04-24T16:48:00.003+08:00

It's been a while.

Whenever the light is dim, we never think of creating that spark.

Thinner Ghetto and I did something really dumb(?) and got ourselves into trouble. Who knew that a practical joke could balloon to such a big mess. Sigh, I have no idea what kind of lesson I can take away from this. Don't play pranks? Mind your own business? It's stupid in a way that something that was done out of pure fun had such annoying consequences.

另外，饱汉不知饿汉饥。两天前，我收回了华文测验。22/60我又是不及格。大家都说皇天不负苦心人。这是真的吗？还记得六年级时，我华文老师还批评我，说我六年级离校考试之华文的一科目肯定考不到“A Star”。我的确知道我基础不好，但为何要在整班前宣告呢？这次有时不及格，我不知如何了。天天读课文，读到三根半夜。结果还被老师责骂，问我为什么还没睡觉。老师啊，虽然我吃的盐未比你吃的饭多，我相信个人还知道自己的限制。这次有时不及格，使我背上沉重的思想包袱。我知道生活非能一路顺风，但是遭受了这么多挫折，承受着屡次的重大打击，是个很难受的感觉啊。我现在不知所措，只能向前走。但是，前面的路会不会是我心中所期望的锦绣程途呢？

People can comment all they want, it wouldn't affect me. Neither sticks, stones, reprimands would break my spirit. Setbacks and failures wouldn't either. It is the feeling of helplessness, that everything you would never savour the fruits of your labour, that you would never reap what you sow. If there really is an omnipotent being above us, governing all our daily lives, I would want to know why. They say effort pays off, but it does not always. I don't rely on luck, why are my results always so whimsical? It's a burden I would like to shed off. I'm afraid. I'm terrified. I pray I would never buckle and fall.

Failures can bombard me, I will stand up strong. I want to walk my own path, never walking behind someone's shadow. I don't live up to others, I live for myself. I set my expectations, I shall reach them.

Chase your dreams, and see the flowers bloom.

In memory

2010-04-16T01:45:00.002+08:00

Haste doesn't necessarily make waste.

Make the signs yourself.

I remember, I was on the sofa. I saw the smile, she was holding me. I was laughing. I was stunned.

I woke up.

I cried.

The link, it pains. Overcome and cherish.

Memories might fade, feelings won't.

Feel.

Contemplation

2010-04-10T22:19:00.002+08:00

I felt sick.

I didn't know what got into me.

I shouted, slammed, cried.

Isolated, not alienated.

I was desperate.

No one answered my silent prayers.

Walk down this path.

I shall not regret.

I hate reliance, especially when I have to do so.

Weak.

I hate being controlled by fury.

Weak.

I hate lying to myself.

Weak.

I hate being weak.

I want to strengthen my will, spirit, soul.

I want the strength.

I want to live up to expectations.

I want to others to be proud, be happy.

I want to happy.

I want to achieve.

I will achieve.

Watch me

向上向善

2010-04-07T23:08:00.002+08:00

I believe I have finally come to terms/overcome with my disappointment in the recent Chinese test.

I have to buck up, without compromising on anything. Except play I guess, so means less slacking around. Yes, I do that. I'm human after all, we have flaws, weaknesses, tendencies etc.

Oh, recently a video was posted as a short snippet of Live Academy, including the songs "Super Generation", "Unchain World", "JUMP!" and "Eternal Blaze". To be brutally honest, they weren't exactly the best. Come on hime-sama, don't let us down, especially when I'm in this critical juncture where I need all intrinsic and extrinsic motivation!!!

加油，虽然我不相信“皇天不负苦心人”，但是能看到自己发奋图强，自己深感满足感。

Oh, and I did not undergo some fan-boy conversion, I'm a picky guy after all. Perhaps I am just a critical fan-boy, mashed full of critique. It's good to be critical once in a while I guess, shows that you have high expectations. Be optimistic yeah?

NANANANANANA

whimsical

Max revive

暧昧

2010-04-06T18:51:00.002+08:00

Chinese test is over.

Despite all the talk about what's over is over, I still worry for my Chinese test. Blame it on my inconfidence in the subject, blame it on me no getting enough sleep the night before, blame it on me for not studying hard enough.

I really am trying, and I hope it isn't too late.

I predicted I would return back to BS at 330 yesterday. However, I embarked on my return trip at 5:20. Haiz.

Oh, I think my iPod is starting to malfunction.

What clearly should be "You have a dream" was being played as "WILD EYES".

Sorry for the caps, because that was what was indicated.

They are songs anyway, for the ignorant.

This better be true

2010-03-28T01:18:00.003+08:00

http://www.mizukinana.jp/news/index_cd.html
After 3 A-side discs, new album?
What's more, it is 1 day after my birthday.

Though 7/7 is kinda expected.

I can't believe I broke my train of Chinese thought just to blog about this.

(≧ ω ≦)

zhez

2010-03-25T00:51:00.000+08:00

Hi, this post is posted with the sole intent of making fun of someone who is unable to post up messages on their blog.
XD

Gosh

2010-03-19T21:59:00.004+08:00

Please don't flame me for posting this video.
I don't watch Pretty Cure, never did anyway. Just that I was looking through the Animelo 2009 in search of these videos:

Not my favourite performance for this song, preferred the Live Diamond version more. From my dearth of music knowledge, let's just say that this version lacked the "power". (Not sure if I used the word dearth correctly, but I'll just leave it as that.)
Oh, but I'm not saying it's not good. It's good, but not her best.

WOO:)
Anyway, I finished baka to test. Huhuh.
http://kurogane.animeblogger.net/2010/02/12/hideyoshiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii/#more-3094

Major Nosebleed... Please lol at this. That is a guy anyway.

Anyway, it's choked full ecchi, so you have been warned.

http://www.animecrazy.net/baka-to-test-to-shoukanjuu-episode-10/

Specifically, 4:28 - 5:36. The nurse after that is the guy in the link above. He is a guy.

Don't get weird ideas.

So anyway, let's say that NCC training was a disappointment for NCOs, because we couldn't achieve what we wanted to. Things need to be done again.

Sorry A Training Team, we have cadets to manufacture.

Mass produce.

Create.

Freezing - Counterattack

Let it remain there.

Nostalgia

2010-03-17T19:09:00.002+08:00

It's near 3 minutes long, so I often use it for leg raise.

Huhuh

Sound

2010-03-16T21:05:00.001+08:00

It rocks when you hear a singer live.

It rocks even better if they sound the same as in the recording.

It rocks best if you they sound better than in the recording.

Especially when you know they are not lip-syncing. Skipper

Mistake

2010-03-16T00:45:00.003+08:00

Today's mistake, tomorrow's consequence

Let me run away to my personal utopia.

Escapism, so tempting, yet like a seeping poison, permeating through.

Innocuous fun, turned a bloody mess.

The elation and adrenaline, why has it degenerated so much.

Each step on thin ice, each step, each crack.

Black wings, they soar the sky.

Tie yourself to the bare ground and freeze.

Take in all the warmth of the ice.

26 is there for a reason.

We fall, we drop. Accident, disaster, calamity.

Soon, it will all end.

Grip tight, and cross your fingers.

This night, you won't forget.

Feel the adrenaline coursing through.

Feel the winter breath upon your face.

Drink it all in; bitter medicine.

Look up; look forward; look far - keep your gaze transfixed.

This world shall smile upon you.

Come now. Let us now cross the River Styx.

---

Okay enough of my rant.

Delain is kind of cool. Thanks to Tiet Ho for introducing this to me.

Though I've got to say that it kind of hit me as an apprentice to Within Temptation.

Was looking through End of an Era. I still kind of think that there is just this special chemistry between Tarja and Marco.

Scary Eyes as usual

Tried to look further into Japanese music.

Oh, I was quite surprised that Paradise Lost was the OP for Ga-Rei 0, since I never watched the anime and started with the manga first. That hints something.

Finished Negima! (not !?).

Trying to complete Shakugan no Shana.

Was looking through Lucky Star again. I think my favourite reference is still Episode 6.

Initial D!!! It's a wonder how they make 40km/h seem so fast. Heh.

Anyways, I was referring from 2 minutes to 4 minutes

Okay, seriously waiting for Unchain∞World live.

Because a measly student like me can't possibly leave Singapore now.

Back to studying Biology.

Wow, no Nana videos in this post. Scary.

Airplane

2010-03-11T11:47:00.002+08:00

She left today.

USA.

It has been 19 years already. Today was the day.

I remember, I used to shout at her for waking me up in the morning, for always preparing that ginseng mixture which she always encouraged me to drink. When I was young, she was very protective, albeit too much, which could be the reason for me being so screwed up now.

It's look losing another family member. From young, every picture included her. She used to tell my sister, she would only go back home when my sister started on her university. I knew that was impossible.

She was close to the family, sometimes recounting dreams she had about my grandparents to me. She learnt how to cook, wash, speak Chinese and a smattering of Hokkien from them after all.

I hardened myself for tis day to come. I would just like to recount, to keep those memories in tact.

Whenever she woke me up, I would give her a black face, but she only mumbled to herself when I was out of sight.

Whenever she cooked for me and I couldn't finish the food, she would scold me for wasting the food, telling me how some people in Africa probably couldn't afford food.

Whenever I came back home, she would always ask me if there was anything to wash.

Whenever she wanted to go out to buy stuff, she would always tell me for some reason.

Whenever she wanted her handphone ringtone to be changed, she would always come to me.

I remember, I had a dream where she had to leave. I woke up crying.

When I was young, she used to bath me, I was young after all. She used to tickle me, and always said that I was much cuter when I was young.

When I was lazing around, she would always come up to me, saying how I used to be so small, and how I am now a head taller than her.

She would always ask me if the blood stain on the pillow was caused by my "bleeding nose".

She would always mumble to herself whenever pissed, and when she saw me she would always walk away. I would only stare weirdly.

She would always be the one to bring up drinks, always giving me coffee for some reason.

I used to go to her room at night whenever I couldn't sleep.

I remembered asking her to help prepare my uniform when I was in Sec 1, she always did it to allow me to get o mistakes.

She was like an older sister, not the best person, not the worst person. Someone ordinarily mundane, yet extraordinarily special. To me.

I can't really think of much now, now that the beads are making a tap dance.

It was the start of a story when she came to Singapore. Now its the end. I hope her next story would be as eventful.

As much as I can remember, she made me who I am today.

I am grateful. Thanks.

Holiday of mugging

2010-03-07T17:29:00.003+08:00

For some reason, I feel really motivated to start studying again.

You know the feeling when it comes.

So I didn't do really well for this term, mainly due to a certain subject. Though I shall not state which subject that is.

Hmm. Waiting for something pains me.

Short post.

Go mug.

Oh, and be the buttress for the Solid Copper Oxide.

Oh, I'm listening to Fever now. Hah, how lag.

Run, Jog, Walk, Run

2010-03-01T20:33:00.003+08:00

It's unhealthy, but it's a habit.

Received very good news regarding NCC today. I am very pleased with the things to come. Really pleased.

Examinations are finally over, though the last 4 tests are kind of difficult, enough for me to cry. They say that effort pays off, but do we always experience this? Does effort really pay off? It doesn't, its the reassurance that we have done our best that pays off. Once you've completed the test, try to move on. Persuade yourself to look forward and carry on. Only then would effort pay off.

Moving on. I want to share a story, a short simple story.

There was a child. He scored 37/50 for his comprehension. He checked the marks, and realised the correct score should have been 38/50. He asked the teacher for it. The teacher refused to give the score. The end.

I am not sure if you would understand this story. It only pertains to a select few anyway.

It cannot be everytime whereby people will play by the rules.