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Reflections
It's been a while.
Whenever the light is dim, we never think of creating that spark. Thinner Ghetto and I did something really dumb(?) and got ourselves into trouble. Who knew that a practical joke could balloon to such a big mess. Sigh, I have no idea what kind of lesson I can take away from this. Don't play pranks? Mind your own business? It's stupid in a way that something that was done out of pure fun had such annoying consequences. 另外，饱汉不知饿汉饥。两天前，我收回了华文测验。22/60我又是不及格。大家都说皇天不负苦心人。这是真的吗？还记得六年级时，我华文老师还批评我，说我六年级离校考试之华文的一科目肯定考不到“A Star”。我的确知道我基础不好，但为何要在整班前宣告呢？这次有时不及格，我不知如何了。天天读课文，读到三根半夜。结果还被老师责骂，问我为什么还没睡觉。老师啊，虽然我吃的盐未比你吃的饭多，我相信个人还知道自己的限制。这次有时不及格，使我背上沉重的思想包袱。我知道生活非能一路顺风，但是遭受了这么多挫折，承受着屡次的重大打击，是个很难受的感觉啊。我现在不知所措，只能向前走。但是，前面的路会不会是我心中所期望的锦绣程途呢？ People can comment all they want, it wouldn't affect me. Neither sticks, stones, reprimands would break my spirit. Setbacks and failures wouldn't either. It is the feeling of helplessness, that everything you would never savour the fruits of your labour, that you would never reap what you sow. If there really is an omnipotent being above us, governing all our daily lives, I would want to know why. They say effort pays off, but it does not always. I don't rely on luck, why are my results always so whimsical? It's a burden I would like to shed off. I'm afraid. I'm terrified. I pray I would never buckle and fall. Failures can bombard me, I will stand up strong. I want to walk my own path, never walking behind someone's shadow. I don't live up to others, I live for myself. I set my expectations, I shall reach them. Chase your dreams, and see the flowers bloom. Saturday, April 24, 2010
Toiled 4:48 PM ~
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In memory
Haste doesn't necessarily make waste.
Make the signs yourself. I remember, I was on the sofa. I saw the smile, she was holding me. I was laughing. I was stunned. I woke up. I cried. The link, it pains. Overcome and cherish. Memories might fade, feelings won't. Feel. Friday, April 16, 2010
Toiled 1:45 AM ~
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Contemplation
I felt sick.
I didn't know what got into me. I shouted, slammed, cried. Isolated, not alienated. I was desperate. No one answered my silent prayers. Walk down this path. I shall not regret. I hate reliance, especially when I have to do so. Weak. I hate being controlled by fury. Weak. I hate lying to myself. Weak. I hate being weak. I want to strengthen my will, spirit, soul. I want the strength. I want to live up to expectations. I want to others to be proud, be happy. I want to happy. I want to achieve. I will achieve. Watch me Saturday, April 10, 2010
Toiled 10:19 PM ~
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向上向善
I believe I have finally come to terms/overcome with my disappointment in the recent Chinese test.
I have to buck up, without compromising on anything. Except play I guess, so means less slacking around. Yes, I do that. I'm human after all, we have flaws, weaknesses, tendencies etc. Oh, recently a video was posted as a short snippet of Live Academy, including the songs "Super Generation", "Unchain World", "JUMP!" and "Eternal Blaze". To be brutally honest, they weren't exactly the best. Come on hime-sama, don't let us down, especially when I'm in this critical juncture where I need all intrinsic and extrinsic motivation!!! 加油，虽然我不相信“皇天不负苦心人”，但是能看到自己发奋图强，自己深感满足感。 Oh, and I did not undergo some fan-boy conversion, I'm a picky guy after all. Perhaps I am just a critical fan-boy, mashed full of critique. It's good to be critical once in a while I guess, shows that you have high expectations. Be optimistic yeah? NANANANANANA whimsical Max revive Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Toiled 11:08 PM ~
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暧昧
Chinese test is over.
Despite all the talk about what's over is over, I still worry for my Chinese test. Blame it on my inconfidence in the subject, blame it on me no getting enough sleep the night before, blame it on me for not studying hard enough. I really am trying, and I hope it isn't too late. I predicted I would return back to BS at 330 yesterday. However, I embarked on my return trip at 5:20. Haiz. Oh, I think my iPod is starting to malfunction. What clearly should be "You have a dream" was being played as "WILD EYES". Sorry for the caps, because that was what was indicated. They are songs anyway, for the ignorant. Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Toiled 6:51 PM ~
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