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New Year, same confusing thoughts.
Walking through the streets, the emptiness is really nice for some reason.
This time last year we were walking towards the CRL complaining about how we had a tute before everyone else hahaha, reminiscing on past memories now, probably a sign that we're getting old. At least my smile is still young and untainted huh. Failed a squat for the first time in years. Then I failed a set of squats for the first time ever. Sigh, maybe I've been too greedy with the progression? But it's the first time I've actually pushed this hard. Trust the program I guess. --- This blog has been with me for a long time now, and I probably will continue updating it through this year. I mean, it'll be fun to look back and smile at all the random stuff that I've posted while deprived of sleep and deprived of sanity. And I had no idea I could feel this way. Okay, time to study. I mean, what else can I even do now. --- --- Ehhh, the lights outside are shining brightly now. The lights in the room only light up brighter when the outsides are dark. I think, I just need to draw the curtains open. And the smile is fake. A smile to cover up insecurity, disappointment, anger, fear and just well, sadness. But sometimes we smile so much that we forget how to even feel happy. Maybe that's the culmination of melancholy, the right to just feel nonchalant and down. Or maybe there's just a lack of stimulus. Oh? It's not raining anymore. Sunday, January 6, 2019
Toiled 7:00 AM ~
100% Effort, 100% Luck
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