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Mediocre
I was doing some overdue filing today, need to get pumped up and all y'know.
I came across my results, I kind of understood how my sister felt. Sometimes, SMTP really seems to be an enticing option. But then what's done is done. Might as well anticipate the future. Today I really wanted to invest in a deuter, but I realised that my sister/brother, either one actually bought one long long ago. So I might as well make the best of it. ONE OF MY CARABINERS IS MISSING! ZACHARY, SOLOMON, YINGYUE, IS IT WITH YOU!? That aside, I coincidentally bumped into Solomon today. The world is small. Somehow bought a jacket. 196 flew away just like that. Rarr. Gintama! I want time to complete you. Realised I haven't been updating my anime list. Not that I have much to update. Kamen Rider and RatMan? Gahh, time is killing me. Training tomorrow! Really pumped up for no reason. Yesterday I really tried to console my sister. I mean, just because someone scores higher than you doesn't automatically indicate that they are of higher calibre. I mean, while I don't really believe that everyone is equally smart (The world is unfair), but then you are a talented individual, probably more talented than Zhong Hong and I. I just didn't have the balls to say it. I really hope that one day you would get to see this, given that all my secrets are being revealed to you like a leaky faucet. Ha, but grow up strong and beautiful yar. Don't become a dick like me. Hmm, if I really have tumour, I would certainly cry till my death. Let's hope its just another fat blob. But then, Everything would turn out fine yea? P.S. YingYue, I'm not a lolicon. ._. Friday, November 25, 2011
Toiled 8:54 PM ~
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PSLE
You put up a front.
But the fragile facade shatters. It's better as pieces than whole. Your father tells you that it was what he expected. If I were in your position now, I would really be pissed and sad. He doesn't know your sadness. The effort you put in didn't yield the expected results. It's sad. Hard work doesn't pay off. I said this before. Your mother is agitated by your father's comments. She succumbs to the pressure and conveys your father's message to you. Fucked up chaos ensues, thank god I stepped in. The hell with this shit. I mean 268 is good and all. However compared to your expectations, it certainly fell short as underwhelming. I'm sorry I played a part in boosting your expectations. It came from pride as a brother, you probably won't understand, but it doesn't matter. I'm proud as your brother, that you actually meet with such a "failure". Everyone faces crap in some point of their life. But it ultimately matters if you can pull through. Whether you become emaciated through the process, or whether you emerge stronger, it would really be up to you. I'm really glad you asked for my opinion. But your fucking failure of a brother couldn't come up with a better answer than a few short sentences. I'm sorry. I want to try to be a better brother. But it won't come so soon. Please smile again. Thursday, November 24, 2011
Toiled 10:17 PM ~
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I'll forget this post soon
I need to keep my distance.
This is getting fucked up. I didn't intend it to be that way. People'll feel the difference. You'll feel it too. He'll feel better. I will too. Sunday, November 20, 2011
Toiled 9:43 PM ~
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Back to the desk
Classic. Looking forward to stuff. Back to the desk. Back to the books. Toiled 3:06 PM ~
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Cliques
People come from different backgrounds.
Some say the cliques are present. I'm not involved. But I want to see it. I want to see the social strata, the hate, the despair, the leer, the jeers. I want to be the one to see it. Let's not be too quick to jump to conclusions. Understand the people around you. We are humans after all. Saturday, November 19, 2011
Toiled 11:41 PM ~
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Jaded feelings
The world is fucked up.
Being in the in crowd doesn't necessarily confer you the title of socially adept. Socially adept people might simply be good in finding a common scapegoat. Stick close to your friends, they'll pull you through. They'll give you the criticism and stop with the superficial bullshit. Friends, they are people who are willing to listen to you. Friends, they are people who are candid with you. I pity you, but your growth would ultimately pull you through. Your friends are here, don't forget that yea. Training tomorrow. Looking forward. They better not be late. Friday, November 18, 2011
Toiled 11:08 PM ~
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Grateful
I'm grateful for everything that happened today.
Lips sealed, words seared into my mind. You have my word. I stumbled upon the scene with 500 days of summer. It was a sad movie. Then again, what you're doing now is probably the safest route. You have my support. Whilst things might not grow well, I guess cherish and anticipate the future. We're still kids. Kids with ambitions, dreams, wants. We make mistakes, but we automatically stand back up. It's instinct. Let's preserve and treasure this instinct. Ever changing. Dynamic. Shifting. Dying out. Sparks. Life changes. Environment changes. People come. People go. Even if the proverbial glass is half empty. Let's make sure that our mind stays full. Memories fade. Words do not. Write it out. Talk about it. The natural order of the world would bring it back when the time comes. Have faith. Parents are the best of people. Parents aren't role models. They have their flaws. They make mistakes. However, I believe that somewhere deep down, parents would love their child, and would only want the best for them. Like us, they crack under stress and pressure. Sometimes, the cracks surface. We fall into the cracks, and we stop seeing the bigger landscape. Remember all the happy times. Support them. Maybe, your bonds would run deeper. Keep them shining. Your dreams. I really respect you, and I hope I would earn yours. You are Human after all. I appreciate it. Thanks. Monday, November 14, 2011
Toiled 9:12 PM ~
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Updated Blogskin
Condoned y blog just now to make some changes to the blog skin.
Re-opened now, as you obviously can see. Sunday, November 13, 2011
Toiled 5:01 PM ~
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Just tired
Legs are sore.
Eyes are droopy. Arms are perfectly fine though. Thighs still burning. Spirits high. Thursday, November 10, 2011
Toiled 11:45 PM ~
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Take a walk
The PArAnoiD AnDrOId takes a walk down memory lane.
Meet a girl who you only helped. You did not get caught. After half a year. She's slipping through walls. The frequency ticked. Slippery as sound, it missed. Or maybe it was the other way around. Though it was accidental on both sides I'm sure. She's slipping through walls. The frequency ticked. Slippery as sound, blame globalisation. Captured. Hint Zachary, hints are scattered all over the place. Hi Solomon, say hi back. Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Toiled 11:32 PM ~
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_____ Card Virus
Holy crap.
I didn't see this coming. Let's just make do with it. Nothing wrong right? I'm a paranoid android. Tuesday, November 8, 2011
Toiled 9:41 PM ~
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PDS
I'm proud to belong to this part.
HCINCC, the best thing that happened in my Secondary School life. >) YAYBALLS. I mean, for those of you all that don't really know why my FB profile pic is that picture, I'll just say that I really feel proud to have come from my part. In Primary School, I was somewhat happy. I led a pretty innocent life, shielded from a lot of events due to my family background (I'm not blaming my family, it's kind of inevitable given my mom's nature). Then in Secondary School, magic happened. Well, I actually joined NCC because losers like me don't want to play sports but want to exercise. And, because my brother was from NCC. I guess NCC helped me open my eyes a lot. It made me umm, mentally retarded It made me appreciate music and stand up for music I liked lol It made me understand how to deal with bipolar bitches ._. It made me learn how to deal with weird people. It showed me the importance of effort. It made me understand that while effort was important, luck was essential. It made me understand that every time you fail, many have failed too, and that you don't deserve the pity. It made me understand that friends are actually the people you argue with the most, but for some reason you keep forgiving them. It made me understand that real friends would actually criticise you straight in the face. It showed me how to deal with white gangsters lol. It made me learn that in life, things don't always go your way, but you just have to move forward. It showed me that even if you never thought you were close to someone, getting shouted at, running together, KIDed together, laughing together, ponning class to polish boots together, climbing through the window to get into lock room to stone/sleep/play com, stoning in lock/log room together, bitching about why we always take 1 hour to pack our stuff before we actually go KAP/ stoning at poolside and getting scammed (and sometimes choking on a fishbone right TY)/ going through stupid hellish camps together, catching people sleep during solonite, having to run 2.4 at 3:30 in the morning, having your rifle stolen and having your hopes get destroyed, that someone becomes a person you would have no problem stoning around with. It showed me that a true friend is someone who you can sit next to and not talk, yet not feel awkward. It showed me that everything was worth the wait. HCINCC, proud to be. Thursday, November 3, 2011
Toiled 7:02 PM ~
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