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and they go
So everyone is posting awesome pictures of visiting overseas countries and basking under the young spring sun while I bask under the warm yellow light of my desk lamp.
Oxford is like getting really temperamental. Raining for an hour and then stopping. And once you step out it starts to rain again. Maybe it has an inbuilt Zhongy detector. Mehh Like a sheep. Mehhhhhhhh. Thursday, March 31, 2016
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lacking spontaneity
So walking back from iffly, I was just thinking about the past because you know, old people do that.
Okay, so I'm actually having some shoulder pain when I do pull-ups, and hence I thought back to my army days where I had injuries galore.
I remember being told by dear buddy that "Yes, soldiers must perform not only at their peak and under all conditions. But then you're not expected to "perform" when you train. Train smart; you're in OCS because you have some muscle between your ears. It's too early to crash and burn"
... Mmm//
Wednesday, March 30, 2016
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set the mood
It's 2130 hours, but this is the time when emotions start getting the better of me.
Just a post, to try to set the mood right again Want to rewatch the series again~ Edittttt: Some thoughts while watching episodes instead of doing work whoops..? I know, you know, that we know that other's words are but words, and that they shouldn't hurt as as much as they do. Especially when it's from someone who you aren't even close to. Why should their comments even matter? But then, there's no reason why "a fake" can't do what "a real" can do, and sometimes, "a fake" does it even better. mmm Back to work. Toiled 4:31 AM ~
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Insane/ Ailee
Night Owls starting work.
Inorganic prep let's go. --- Mmm, sometimes life doesn't feel all that nice. Sometimes you just feel lethargic, like you have no motivation to do what you know you need to do. I think even the most motivated people have days where they just don't feel like doing anything. Or even the most determined people have days where they just feel like everything is too much to handle. I think we break a little, because at the end of the day we're emotionally driven, and negativity is a much stronger emotion than it's better half. But then we need to realise that sometimes we just need to talk things out. And even if they aren't able to help you then, they'll readily do so if they know how to. And they'll eventually be able to help you. --- Take a walk, let the sun wrap its arms around you. That's what it means to live. --- Tuesday, March 29, 2016
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So while studying Physics...
Hey Solomon, have you heard of Newton's 4th Law of Motion?
Everything that goes down must go up. So let's bench again someday~ Sunday, March 27, 2016
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LA Song/ Rain
Because a change of songs is needed to change the mood.
--- So I'm kicking into high gear now, but since when have I ever dropped a gear. The past week perhaps? Having a blog is pretty awesome, cos you get to talk to yourself without actually sounding mad. --- あなたがあなたで居てくれて嬉しい それはあなたにしか出来ない事だから 今日の失敗を引きずらないのよ 明日はまっさらで全て新しいのよ 今をめいいっぱい 楽しんで過ごす事より 大切な事って なに？ - NaNaNa/ 浜崎あゆみ Toiled 1:53 AM ~
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The death of me
They should have told me that.
When you study Chemistry in Uni. They don't give you a periodic table in exams. lolwtf. Saturday, March 26, 2016
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Leaves fall
So true. --- "Hey, it's not raining here." "Hey" "Let's go out" --- I miss my books D: I miss my drawing pad. I miss all the my cards. But I guess what's important is with me. I keep telling myself "it builds character" What kind of "character" though. Toiled 2:40 AM ~
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fun
Bottle in hand, I sat at the bench, overlooking the dark dark night.
But it's nice to have friends a text away. As much as I regret getting a smartphone, the additional perks of being connected to friends is something which I really appreciate. Another one leaves tomorrow. Have fun~ Thursday, March 24, 2016
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Grapvine Fires/ Death Cab
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sentences
I need to.
Talk slower at times. No, in fact gather your thoughts. And then talk. Learn to talk. No need to talk so fast and let out all your ideas. Condense them and form sentences. Edit: Throwback. 5:17 That drop. Always gets me. Wednesday, March 23, 2016
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the scent of another human
"So what are you really?"
Are you the person others know you to be.
Or are you the person when you're alone.
Are you the drunkard who smiles and laughs at everything.
Or are you the lone wolf who likes to stare at the evening sky and just contemplate.
Or maybe you're the person who appreciates the scent of another human.
And appreciates the times when he has the peace and quiet to think back to his actions and learn how to be a better human being.
Or maybe you're just a confused soul.
In this confused world, where everyone is equally confused as you.
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"So Zhong Hui what kind of songs do you listen to in the morning?"
Back in the past I wouldn't play songs, because I had a schedule (or my Dad's schedule) to stick to.
Now that I wake up by myself, and follow my own schedule, I'll usually play a song in the morning while I prepare for the day.
Back in Rose Lane:
Bixby Canyon Bridge - Death Cab for Cutie
Ailee... Seems to be a whole lot of her songs cos I rediscovered her I guessTrickster - 水樹奈々 In Holywell: ... I'll admit, sometimes I get a bottle of cider when the night just becomes too lonely. I don't get drunk, I don't get high. But placebo or not, I sleep better at night. --- A goal of mine would be to make a textbook at the introductory level for Chemistry students. Because to be able to write a textbook at said level will require deeper knowledge than the basics to ensure that what is said is true when applied at higher levels of study. And you need a firm understanding of what you're writing to present it in a way simple for beginners to understand. Tuesday, March 22, 2016
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Fairground
It's been a while since I've had a day where I just kick back and relax.
In fact have I ever? But then I'm the type of person who feels that each day needs to have a little bit of studying and a little bit of work. I'm always anxious, always in fear of the unknown, of the future. I don't like to take risks, don't like to predict. I want to know, know what will actually happen. Take measures, eliminate "possibilities" and replace them with "facts and truth". For as long as I can remember, I have never really spent a day where I indulge in my own sloth. Maybe this is me, but I'm not exactly "happy". I'm "content", but that isn't "happy". But I know what will make me "happy". But then again, I know that it's still too elusive and out of reach now. It's something which I realise I can never say. Out of pride and selfishness. Gosh I'm such a mess. But I need to once again accept it and just trudge along in this twisted fairground of a world. --- Gravity was being an ass today. But I just showed it the finger. Awesome. Toiled 1:15 AM ~
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Feeling of dejavu
It was probably a distant memory,
But I cried like no tomorrow. Subconsciously, I was overcome with emotion. And even after knowing it was all a dream, I cried even more. ... Ever get the feeling of dejavu, when you think that what you're experiencing has actually occurred to you. --- I'm studying, but my mind just can't get into the right mood... Sian. Really shag, even though it's the holidays... ... The woman cradled the baby in her arms. The child slept peacefully, without a care in the world. Innocent, and pure of heart, unaware of what the world had in store for him. She sang a lullaby, and he continued to sleep blissfully. I watched, and just cried. Waking up from the dream, I struggled to imagine what I just witnessed. I couldn't have remembered it, but it all seemed too real. The furniture, the background, the hanging paintings, the old house. The sofa, the plasma TV, the cable. I could feel the streaks down my eyes. But, I just started crying even more. Thank you. I'll be eternally grateful. Monday, March 21, 2016
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Let that which does not truly matter slide
Me thinks Zhongy's gonna get bored realllll soon.
Time for more times with my organic pieces of paper instead of the organic touch of another human. I think I'm still drunk. Wake up! ... The home is another universe. And in that universe, you are king of your own room. I want to redecorate my room. Though pasting stuff around is pretty interesting an idea. --- Talk about music. I have no idea when I start listening to ballads. I used to be the kind of guy who listened to the electric guitars shattering my eardrums. Maybe I aged. Like wine. Like Iron and Wine. lol wut. --- Slide, boy. Let the things that do not truly matter Slide. Concentrate on what makes you a truly special snowflake. Slide. Slide. Slide. Saturday, March 19, 2016
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Looping while organic-ing// Congrats to the lawyers for finishing mods// Time to hit the gym// Gym? What's a gym?// Work, Hustle, Kill
Friday, March 18, 2016
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Organic// xoxo, dreaming of romance?// Not too late~
When the cherry blossoms are in full bloom I want to be there D:
So many things I want to do, so little time before life actually takes me by the neck.
Maybe travelling will be a better (though very personal and selfish) choice of action.
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Cooking is like a science project, you fail a lot, but when you succeed you don't feel like you've actually "succeeded"
And hence you try harder.
It's beautiful, because you know "perfection" is just a word you can't attain. And that's why its elusiveness is so attractive. Evening Sky - Ailee Thursday, March 17, 2016
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It builds character
So another holiday starts.
This week my friends still accompany me. But come week 3/4, it'll be me in this fortress of solitude. It gets real tough to handle the loneliness then. But I think a bit of alone time is always good for the soul and the mind. It builds character. It allows you to appreciate the idiosyncrasies of people, the face to face conversations, the warmth of a friend's smile. I went overseas to go. And while I might not be doing as much travelling to gain cultural insight of the world, I think I'm building deeper roots into what makes Zhongy tick. --- Talk about tick tock, let's have a throwback song. Like Alice in Wonderland, let's get lost once more What you waitin' fur? Tuesday, March 15, 2016
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So I decided to display my lifting belt, and everyone who comes in automatically asks what's that
It's a tool straight out of 50 Shades.
The worst kind of torture device. Monday, March 14, 2016
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Risk and Reward
Just a nice Sunday afternoon.
Sitting in my new room.
Listening to Ailee (Such an amazing voice...!).
Sipping on coffee and nibbling on kit kat despite my sore throat.
Procrastinating maths revision.
Let the holidays begin~
Sunday, March 13, 2016
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Maybe it's boring, or maybe it's maturity, OR MAYBE IT'S THE CREATINE
I'll never get it.
How some people can be so rude. But you endure, because only you could've been hurt. Friday, March 11, 2016
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Stimuli
When there's a crowd.
When there's a whole bunch of people. I tend to just sit back and listen. Because it's a habit for me to just take in all the stimuli. It's like stepping out into a world of colour when all you've seen before was black and white. Understand me? Thursday, March 10, 2016
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"I've actually never seen you get angry before"; "I've never actually heard you swear before"
Good post from the little girl.
It's really easy to get angry.
I can testify that, and I can assure you that I have one of the worst tempers if I actually want to ruin someone else's day.
It's easy to be an asshole.
I think I'm one of the biggest asshole out there.
And that's why I can tolerate the antics of other assholes.
I really doubt you're an asshole.
Hence the difficulty.
I laugh it off.
I pity them, because they're seeking attention. I know. I can empathise.
Find a friend who's a good listener.
I'm glad to have found one here.
My"bitching" outpost. Sad to say.
Of course I don't always unload all my frustration on him, but everyone has a day where the mountain of shit just starts to topple and crash.
And you're right at the base (setting up the tent and collecting water!)
That's what friends are for!
Sometimes you just need to tell the world your frustrations.
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Responsibility
I think it's very irresponsible to get someone drunk and not take care of him.
I mean things could have turned out really bad. Seriously now, I should make a compilation of #LeadersofTomorrowAssholesofToday Wednesday, March 9, 2016
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Ohhh, Big Dog! LARGE!
I've been wondering how to phrase this properly.
But I sometimes wonder a lot about religion and its effects on your social life.
No offence to anyone I hope.
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Squats - Slow and Steady// 122.5kg for 6, PR I guess?// Unintended
Oh gosh... Some things just happened really fast.
Haha, it was really embarrassing. But it was really fun at the same time. Carrots hahaha. I'll need to do something, because no matter how casual, it should always be the guy. --- Little pleasures in life. Sometimes it's nice to go out and just relax. Not think about anything. To just lie in bed, completely clueless of what you're going to do next. To have a day to "me". Not everyday you know, but once a while. To just sit in the cold cold evening wrapped up warmly in the thick winter jackets. Sipping piping hot mocha (Decadence yeaaa???) and just hearing the wind blow and the grass sway in the air. Sitting in front of your computer screen (cross legged mind you because you got to stretch out those glutes/thighs) and just watching youtube videos, finding new music. Or scrolling through facebook pictures, laughing at all the old pictures. --- It's a starry starry night tonight. What are you doing? Monday, March 7, 2016
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Throwback to so many songs
Last night ya'know. --- I don't have many things to offer. But I can offer you reliability and a back to lean on when times go awry. ---- "Where fun goes to die" Well if fun means drinking and socializing in a club where you practically hear shit, I'd rather not have fun. --- Look into the mirror. Every morning. Toiled 3:54 AM ~
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Just glad that I have the people around me and close to me
:)
Remember to Smile people. Friday, March 4, 2016
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Daily updates
I'll take the fall!
Come on, let's go. Week 7 ending soon. Toiled 7:11 AM ~
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It's Zachary!
Thought process while cooking for myself:
Hmm, do I have meat? ... "Minced Pork!" Ooh, expiry date... 1st March? Nahhhh Setting up the stove and all, oiling the pan... "Hmm, too much noodles, better use some..." "Ooh, yakisoba, might as well..." "Hmm, looks a bit plain, add some Worcestershire and sesame oil" "Oh yea, soy sauce..." ... "Hmm, a bit bland uhhh..." "Add some umami?" ... "Hey I have Katsuoboshi!" "Hmm, a bit dry, add some eggs. *Crack* Crack* Crack*..." "Okay tastes fine..." Thursday, March 3, 2016
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Absolutely stuck
In the simplest topic I thought I'd have to do, I'm freaking stuck wtf
On the side note, To all the people who grew up with WWE, or am I the only one? Edit: How in the world does Paschen Series produce "sharp lines"... Tute work... Toiled 8:51 AM ~
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Means
I think I'm thoroughly burnt out. Trying to tap into my already drained pool of enthusiasm to no avail :( My retardness is coming back though. Antics. *And to watch Moby's new videos taken from 'Innocents', click there! Wednesday, March 2, 2016
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